Just got the news that I did not get the *** job..... very depressing, but kinda expected too as I know that if I had gotten the job, they would have informed me by now..... But it doesn't make it easier to accept the news.....
The only thing in my mind is now WHEN will a good job offer comes along...... Sometimes it seems like no company wants me..... I know I should be more patient, but my patience is slowly, surely running out......
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
My Little TIGER
It has been a memorable 2 weeks.....
My baby went for his operation and shown me how strong he is.... :-P.... He did not seem to be in much pain and was acting as usual after the operation......Very proud of him..... Almost 10 months have passed since his birth and he has grown so much..... grown so naughty and intelligent..... I am kinda glad that I have taken so time away from work to spend time with him..... managed to play and interact more with him although he seems NOT SO FOND of my cooking.... :-D
I am looking forward to more developments from him..... wanna see him do many more things.... Anyway, wanna share a picture of him..... my personal little tiger..... :-P
Another 2 pictures of him chasing the camera.... :-P
My baby went for his operation and shown me how strong he is.... :-P.... He did not seem to be in much pain and was acting as usual after the operation......Very proud of him..... Almost 10 months have passed since his birth and he has grown so much..... grown so naughty and intelligent..... I am kinda glad that I have taken so time away from work to spend time with him..... managed to play and interact more with him although he seems NOT SO FOND of my cooking.... :-D
I am looking forward to more developments from him..... wanna see him do many more things.... Anyway, wanna share a picture of him..... my personal little tiger..... :-P
Another 2 pictures of him chasing the camera.... :-P
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
DEPRESSION
I felt so depressed today.... just feel as if I have no hope of ever getting the job that I want..... I feel like crying..... CRY my heart out....
No one understands how I feel.....
No one understands how I feel.....
Monday, February 05, 2007
My last week at Work
This week is technically my last week at work.....
From next week onwards, I will be taking care of my baby monster FULL-TIME..... will I be able to cope?? No one seems to have confidence in me..... kinda disappointing when I am the MOM!!.... Everyone is expecting me to FAIL.... but truthfully, I dun think I will fail.... I imagine myself & him wondering around at pool, shopping mall, going for lessons, etc.... but maybe reality will not be so perfect.... :-P
But I do think I should try and see whether I can be a good SAHM... afterall, I dun seem to be getting any job offer..... Went for another interview last FRIDAY & got another one tomorrow..... but the one tat I been waiting for seems to elude me...... I really wanna get TAT JOB, but dunno when will I get to know the outcome..... I am just waiting for the letter to let me know tat I am unsuccessful..... afterall, the chance of getting the job seems getting smaller & smaller as days pass by.....
From next week onwards, I will be taking care of my baby monster FULL-TIME..... will I be able to cope?? No one seems to have confidence in me..... kinda disappointing when I am the MOM!!.... Everyone is expecting me to FAIL.... but truthfully, I dun think I will fail.... I imagine myself & him wondering around at pool, shopping mall, going for lessons, etc.... but maybe reality will not be so perfect.... :-P
But I do think I should try and see whether I can be a good SAHM... afterall, I dun seem to be getting any job offer..... Went for another interview last FRIDAY & got another one tomorrow..... but the one tat I been waiting for seems to elude me...... I really wanna get TAT JOB, but dunno when will I get to know the outcome..... I am just waiting for the letter to let me know tat I am unsuccessful..... afterall, the chance of getting the job seems getting smaller & smaller as days pass by.....
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
WORRY WART.....
My hubby got a job offer.... hopefully, it will turn out well for him....
For me, days are getting bleaker and bleaker..... just got news yesterday that my boss is pregnant & will be giving birth in late Jul 07..... she may not be coming back to HR after her maternity...... There is also no replacement for my colleague who is leaving the company from 1 Mar 07 onwards.... Feeling very, very depressed..... don't wanna return back to work after my NPL..... I wanna get a job soon.....
I have more or less found the job I want, but no news from the organisation yet.... I am praying hard that I am found suitable for the job..... I need to have a break.....
Just got a call.... tat company I went for the interview yesterday called me & more or less offered me the job..... they just wanna me to redo my CV to make it more tidier and I am supposed to e-mail the guy.....
WHAT SHOULD I DO???!!!
For me, days are getting bleaker and bleaker..... just got news yesterday that my boss is pregnant & will be giving birth in late Jul 07..... she may not be coming back to HR after her maternity...... There is also no replacement for my colleague who is leaving the company from 1 Mar 07 onwards.... Feeling very, very depressed..... don't wanna return back to work after my NPL..... I wanna get a job soon.....
I have more or less found the job I want, but no news from the organisation yet.... I am praying hard that I am found suitable for the job..... I need to have a break.....
Just got a call.... tat company I went for the interview yesterday called me & more or less offered me the job..... they just wanna me to redo my CV to make it more tidier and I am supposed to e-mail the guy.....
WHAT SHOULD I DO???!!!
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
My NO PAY LEAVE is approved
My NO PAY LEAVE is approved.... technically, I will start my NPL on 29 March - 30 June 2007..... will only return to work on 01 July 2007..... will I be back?..... I really hope NOT!!!!
I am desperate for a change and am searching for a job extensively...... Went for an interview yesterday, but it is not what I want..... I want the *** JOB!!.... That job is more exciting and challenging and I like the place too..... so I pray hard that I will get the job..... Will only the news (whether good or bad) by end of January.... so I can either cry or laugh out loud.....
Actually being an FULL TIME HOUSEWIFE is not tat bad..... I will have more time to spend with my baby monster..... but I think I will be bored by end Feb or Mar
Anyway, gotta run..... write later
I am desperate for a change and am searching for a job extensively...... Went for an interview yesterday, but it is not what I want..... I want the *** JOB!!.... That job is more exciting and challenging and I like the place too..... so I pray hard that I will get the job..... Will only the news (whether good or bad) by end of January.... so I can either cry or laugh out loud.....
Actually being an FULL TIME HOUSEWIFE is not tat bad..... I will have more time to spend with my baby monster..... but I think I will be bored by end Feb or Mar
Anyway, gotta run..... write later
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
IsNi the WORRY WART!
I been feeling depressed lately..... worried whether I would be able to find the job that I really want...... worried whether my family finances will be ok in 2007......
2007 just started and there is 11 more months to go...... and I am already giving myself lots of baggage to carry..... I wish I can stop worrying, but I can't....... so all I can do is to look more intensively for jobs and pray hard that my hubby will also get a job that he wants......
Will be going for a job interview this afternoon and hope for the best....
Till later
2007 just started and there is 11 more months to go...... and I am already giving myself lots of baggage to carry..... I wish I can stop worrying, but I can't....... so all I can do is to look more intensively for jobs and pray hard that my hubby will also get a job that he wants......
Will be going for a job interview this afternoon and hope for the best....
Till later
Friday, January 19, 2007
Ian - The BIG BABY
I'm back......
Ian is now about 8.5 mths old.... he is so much naughtier now......
He seems to have my character...... he wants his way & am not shy about it.... But he is so much fun to be with now..... He likes to dismantle & make a mess from his toys.... He can't seem to stand tidiness...... :-P
Anyway, I just took a picture of him all swaddle up just like a newborn......
Compare & contrast how much he has grown & changed.... :-D
Its' FRIDAY
Friday is gonna be over soon..... and it's the WEEKEND again.....
I went for 1 interview yesterday and I really like the job...... I really, really hope that I can get it.... The challenges at the new job is very attractive and I feel that it is really time for me to move on..... Guess all I have to do is wait & see whether I am lucky enough to get picked..... Wish me luck, ok?
Hubby is also sourcing around for a job..... Technically, he been unemployed for 1 week..... Hopefully, he will also get more interviews and get a job that he really wants within the next month or so.......
Right now, the future is so uncertain...... with both of us looking around for new opportunities..... who knows what may happen!..... Just hope that it will be GOOD!
Can't think of what else to write..... so tata and will keep you updated of my JOB HUNT!
I went for 1 interview yesterday and I really like the job...... I really, really hope that I can get it.... The challenges at the new job is very attractive and I feel that it is really time for me to move on..... Guess all I have to do is wait & see whether I am lucky enough to get picked..... Wish me luck, ok?
Hubby is also sourcing around for a job..... Technically, he been unemployed for 1 week..... Hopefully, he will also get more interviews and get a job that he really wants within the next month or so.......
Right now, the future is so uncertain...... with both of us looking around for new opportunities..... who knows what may happen!..... Just hope that it will be GOOD!
Can't think of what else to write..... so tata and will keep you updated of my JOB HUNT!
Friday, January 12, 2007
12 days
Only 12 days of the year has passed, but what 12 DAYS it been.... so many things happened....
I will be going on away(subject to my Director's approval) from 12 Feb 07 onwards..... 25 days of vacation leave and from 28 March onwards, I will be on no-pay leave till end June 2007.... That means no pay for 3 mths & 4 days..... It takes me lots of guts but guess I need the break and time to search for another job......
But what BAD timing it is.... my hubby is also UNEMPLOYED as at today..... who knows when he will get a job..... I really hope it will be soon..... It is not as if we don't have savings to tide us over...... but it is just the feeling of insecurity..... But I can do now is pray hard that all these happened for a good reason and tat the months ahead is much better for the family......
I guess these feelings of insecurity is the main reason why I keep delaying having a child.... with a child, it means more commitment and responsibilities..... and for a person like me who is DAMN insecure/pessimistic, it is scary..... fear of being unable to give my child the best of everything.....
I really need to learn to be more positive & believe that there is always a silver lining in every cloud.... but it is hard.... I think I am like the ant who keeps on saving for a rainy day and never learn to enjoy life experiences......
With the BIG 30 approaching, I have more things on my mind..... Do I wanna continue on this life path or is it time for a MAJOR change?..... I really need to think things through..... But I guess finally, all I want is security..... but security is just AN ILLUSION..... something that is so fragile and can be torn away anytime....
Before I start to be so PHILOSOPHICAL... let me end it here.....
I will be going on away(subject to my Director's approval) from 12 Feb 07 onwards..... 25 days of vacation leave and from 28 March onwards, I will be on no-pay leave till end June 2007.... That means no pay for 3 mths & 4 days..... It takes me lots of guts but guess I need the break and time to search for another job......
But what BAD timing it is.... my hubby is also UNEMPLOYED as at today..... who knows when he will get a job..... I really hope it will be soon..... It is not as if we don't have savings to tide us over...... but it is just the feeling of insecurity..... But I can do now is pray hard that all these happened for a good reason and tat the months ahead is much better for the family......
I guess these feelings of insecurity is the main reason why I keep delaying having a child.... with a child, it means more commitment and responsibilities..... and for a person like me who is DAMN insecure/pessimistic, it is scary..... fear of being unable to give my child the best of everything.....
I really need to learn to be more positive & believe that there is always a silver lining in every cloud.... but it is hard.... I think I am like the ant who keeps on saving for a rainy day and never learn to enjoy life experiences......
With the BIG 30 approaching, I have more things on my mind..... Do I wanna continue on this life path or is it time for a MAJOR change?..... I really need to think things through..... But I guess finally, all I want is security..... but security is just AN ILLUSION..... something that is so fragile and can be torn away anytime....
Before I start to be so PHILOSOPHICAL... let me end it here.....
Monday, January 01, 2007
2007
It is 2007!
Yesterday, hubby & I left Ian with my in-laws & went for the Civil Service Club dinner..... it was kinda fun..... but we left the place at 10.30 pm and went straight home...... no NEW YEAR PARTY for US!!!
Guess we are getting too old for the parties.... :-P
Anyway, hope 2007 brings us prosperity ($$$$), luck & happiness......
Till later
Yesterday, hubby & I left Ian with my in-laws & went for the Civil Service Club dinner..... it was kinda fun..... but we left the place at 10.30 pm and went straight home...... no NEW YEAR PARTY for US!!!
Guess we are getting too old for the parties.... :-P
Anyway, hope 2007 brings us prosperity ($$$$), luck & happiness......
Till later
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Our New House
We have finally settled down at our new place.... Now with the cats confined to the yard, utility room & kitchen, our living area is much nicer.... I have uploaded the pictures for viewing.....
Enjoy............. Will upload more soon.....
Enjoy............. Will upload more soon.....
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
We are MOVING HOUSE......
I am so excited.... we are going to move to our new place....
Ian's room is so cute.... will upload the picture soon.... it is Winnie the Pooh & Friends theme.... one wall is full of their pictures & the other wall shows his name & his baby picture..... :-P
The living room also looks good..... will upload the picture of my new home soon....
Ian's room is so cute.... will upload the picture soon.... it is Winnie the Pooh & Friends theme.... one wall is full of their pictures & the other wall shows his name & his baby picture..... :-P
The living room also looks good..... will upload the picture of my new home soon....
Monday, October 23, 2006
I SCREW UP
Went for an internal job interview today.... and it went terrible... I think I SCREW IT UP.... The interviewer asked very CHIM questions and somehow, I don't think there is a job fit between the job and me.... and down the drain it goes.... *sob* *sob*.....
Anyway, tomorrow is Hari Raya..... so SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all.... :-)
Anyway, tomorrow is Hari Raya..... so SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all.... :-)
Saturday, September 09, 2006
TIME FLIES.......
Time certainly flies... Ian is more than 4 months old already.... he has grown so BIG.....He can flip very well now.... learn how to complain whenever something does not go as he wanted it.... he also seems to wake up every night at around 3 am.... the BEWITCHING hour... :-P
Ian certainly bring a smile to my face..... although, it has been exhausting since I return to work, I still never regretted having him..... he can makes me laught and smile at his antics.... although of course, there are moments when I just need to scream from the tiredness....
Let me share a pic of him
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Back to Work
It is only my 2nd day back at work.... and it left as if I never left the job.... dunno whether it is good or bad...... guess the good thing is that I am in the momentum of work.... but the bad thing is that my workload is still the same..... same old projects..... same old work....
I am kinda bored already..... wanna seriously leave and do new things..... am tempted to go on NO PAY LEAVE and begin something new...... but my concern is FINANCIAL..... I can't do without my pay..... no more extra money to shop and buy new things for Ian..... can't splurge on nonsensical things for him.....
So it seems like I am stuck here till Jan 07.... and then can slowly source for a job..... hopefully, some company will still want me.....
Gotta run now as boss wanna have a meeting to discuss handover now.....
I am kinda bored already..... wanna seriously leave and do new things..... am tempted to go on NO PAY LEAVE and begin something new...... but my concern is FINANCIAL..... I can't do without my pay..... no more extra money to shop and buy new things for Ian..... can't splurge on nonsensical things for him.....
So it seems like I am stuck here till Jan 07.... and then can slowly source for a job..... hopefully, some company will still want me.....
Gotta run now as boss wanna have a meeting to discuss handover now.....
Monday, August 14, 2006
Job... Job.... Job
I got a JOB OFFER today..... but it is kinda disappointing as they are only willing to offer me on my current salary.... and this means that I will technically take a cut in leave benefits as well as my year-end bonus......
But it does feel good that at least they want me.... sometimes, I think it is better for me to take up this offer as afterall, it is best to start anew.... It is because I am afraid that I can't perform up to expectation in my current job after being away for almost 3.5 months.....
But that is another story..... right now, just take a look at my GIANT BABY.... he is growing at a very fast pace....... growing larger and larger every day..... now, he has a temper and will scream the house down if he did not get what he wants immediately..... but once, he gets what he wants, he will stop screaming and becomes a sweet baby again..... WHAT AN IRONY!!!.....
Anyway, I will be going back to work tomorrow and will continue to update on what is happening in my life.....
CIAO!!!
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