Countdown to my LAST DAYS

The title sounds so MORBID.... as if I am leaving this earth.... :-P

Actually, I have tender my resignation & my last day here is 05/08/2007.... However, as I will be on leave from 01-03 Aug and 04 & 05 Aug 07 are the weekends.... my last day is technically 31/07/2007..... Just 20 more days to go.....

How do I feel about leaving?.... large doses of sadness.... Stay here been pretty fruitful.... get my promotion in 2006 (at LONG last).... my immediate boss is nice, even though a bit scatterbrain & no sense of urgency..... colleagues have been nice.... minimal politicking....

Most probably, the question on everyone's mind is "WHY IN THE HELL IS SHE LEAVING?".... There are moments when I ask tat exact question myself..... But I think the reason for leaving is mainly a change of job scope and environment.... I have been doing the same work for almost 5 years and I think a change will be good for me..... Furthermore, there is no way I can get another promotion till 5 years later (minimum).....

I do hope I am making the right choice.... my new job will be more interesting.... at least something different for me.... and I guess I hope after this stint, I will be able to do some lecturing or move up the career ladder......

Baby can CHOOSE

Ian knows his flashcard very well. He is able to pick the right pictures about 80% - 90% of the time.... not bad for a 14 months old baby..... He knows the sound of a snake as well..... super cute when he says SSSSSSSSSSSSSS..... and he can recognise all sort of snakes... at least those in his flashcards.... :-P

What a JOKE!

Ever tot that life will get easier once you decided to leave the organisation?

But it is actually not tat true.... first, you have to find the guts to pre-warn your supervisor.... and it is especially difficult when your supervisor is nice.... Then you will need to meet up with your director and talk it over with her as well..... Tat is EXTREMELY DIFFICULT.... you have to find a way to put everything in a diplomatic way.....

After talking to my director, I felt kinda upset.... she is peeved that I did not tell her about my decision earlier and of course the BAD TIMING.... kinda ruin my happy mood........ but I guess can't pleased everyone.... the most important thing I need to remember is that the move is good for my career and I should be feeling happy.... :-P

On the whole, I would say that I am happy.... seems like floating on CLOUD NINE sometimes.... it just feels good to make a clean break and move on..... hopefully, the move is a good one....

Tata and till future updates....

BTW: Ian can say DADDY.... but he refuses to say it to his daddy.... *laugh*....

Phuket... Phuket.... Phuket

Been back for a few days already.... but was too busy to update....

Nevermind, give short updates

09/06 - plane delayed.. Arrived at hotel only around 10 pm.... Nice BIG room... :-P

10/06 - eat breakfast (limited choices) at 8 plus and off to Karon beach... BIG WAVES, so can't swim... Ian played with the sand & get himself wet by splashing around.... at around 9 plus, went back to hotel & swim at pool... Ian enjoyed himself too much and doesn't want to come out.... He slept till around 1 plus.... Then took the taxi to JungCeylon (at Patong beach)... eat at the Indian restaurant.... guess that is the anniversary meal (so sad...*sob*....)..... Ian gave us a "wonderful" gift, he poo at the restaurant and we need to clean him up. Thank goodness, there is a toilet there....

11/06 - eat breakfast.... go Karon beach..... play at pool.... watch TV.... at 6 pm, went off to airport for departure.... arrived at Singapore around 11.30 pm.

On the whole, the trip is BORING.... but enjoyable seeing Ian enjoying himself.... but think guess if wanna go island hopping, need to leave him in Singapore....

Will update some other time.... too tired to write.... and got BAD cold.

7th Wedding Anniversary

Time certainly flies.... It just seems like yesterday that Irwan & I got married.... and in 2 days time, it will be our 7th wedding anniversary.... I do hope Wan had something special planned for the night.... like a romantic dinner under the moonlight...

I can just imagine the dinner.... and it will be funny rather than romantic.... just picture this.... we will be under the moonlight, looking into each other's eyes and suddenly, the sound "teh" "teh" "teh" gets louder and louder.... and we turn around and there sits our little MONSTER in his baby chair beside our table asking us to pay attention to him and feed him more food.... A total spolier, isn't it??? :-P

So let's see wat the anniversary turns out to be.... I will update on the actual vacation & celebration next week....

Till then....

A Poem for DADDY...

Ian wanna do something special for his 1st Father's Day, but as he can only baby-talk, he delegated the task to me.... so especially for my sweet hubby, this poem selected by little MONSTER thru telepathy just for you.... :-p

A Little Boy Needs Daddy

A little boy needs Daddy

For many, many things:

Like holding him high off the ground

Where the sunlight sings!

Like being the deep music

That tells him all is right

When he awakens frantic with

The terrors of the night.

Like being the great mountain

That rises in his heart

And shows him how he might get home

When all else falls apart.

Like giving him the love

That is his sea and air,

So diving deep or soaring high

He'll always find him there.

Painting of Ian

Just wanna share how the Ian will look like as an angel in a watercolour painting .... :-P

Remembering...

Sometimes when you read a sad blog.... especially a blog where the mum lost 3 kids to stillbirth and premature labour, it hits you real hard that life is not about finding the perfect job.... getting the most $$ you can get.... but rather, it is to be thankful for the little moments that you have with your love ones.....

I am so very grateful for the birth of my little MONSTER... yeah, had quite a difficult time conceiving him.... but the pregnancy & delivery was quite a smooth one.... sure, there are those frightening moments of him being a DS kid... some issues with his testicles and penis.... and overall, shouldn't I be grateful that at least he is physically there for me to hug and kiss.... and of course, scold & nag.... whenever I feel like it.....

There will be obstacles and more worries along the road.... will he be a smart kid???.... able to excel in whatever field he wants???.... but I think I will always have to remember to be thankful that at least I have HIM....

Can I imagine a world without MONSTER?.... To be truthful, I really dun know..... I guess I rather not find out....

Looking forward to PHUKET

We are going to Phuket on Sat.... I am so excited....

My little monster is getting noisy & more annoying.... forever talking in baby language..... he does not stop talking unless he is sleeping.... :-P..... So I can just imagine him talking & talking & talking in the plane, in the car and certainly when at the beach....

Anyway, wanna share his studio photo.... all of us like this picture the best!

UpDaTeS

Just talked to my boss..... will most prob stay in training for another 2 weeks before moving over to recruitment..... is that good or bad news?

Still waiting for *** to call me & ask me to come down to sign with them.... wonder when will they asked me to come down??.... Anyway, went for another interview today.... interview seems quite positive.... but on the other hand, most interviews which I think is positive does not want me.... wonder will it be different in this case?

Anyway, hubby, monster & me will be off for our FIRST vacation as a family this Saturday...... hope the vacation is memorable and interesting..... I can just imagine monster's face when he sees the beach.

More Updates

My colleague who took over my portfolio is leaving.... does that mean I have to take over my portfolio again or will I move over to recruitment?

Guess that question will only be answered on Monday.... or Wednesday.... or never.... :-P

Wonder what will happen if I tendered my resignation on Monday too? I can just imagine their faces.... but if I wanna keep my bonus, I have to endure till end of July.... and then move over to my next career...

Got a JOB OFFER

Got a job offer.... but somehow, my feelings are EXTREMELY MIXED.... happy that someone wants me.... sad that was not offered a higher pay... just $53 (1.2%) more.... pathetic, rite?? :-P .............. But a change will be good for me.... I just hope they are willing to wait till 01/08/2007... or I will have to forfeit my salary revision bonus & mid-year bonus as well.... kinda sad!!

Will update when I have more news update.....

Tata... and I am looking forward to my weekend

Baby Song

At first you didn't lift your head;
You didn't know to smile.
The time before you knew my voice
Seemed such a long, long while.
I couldn't wait for you to roll,
And then to sit and clap.
And now you're off and crawling,
Not helpless in my lap.

Why didn't someone tell me
How fast a baby grows,
That every little baby stage
Soon comes, but sooner goes.
So I'll enjoy the fleeting time
Before you learn to walk.
And treasure every tiny noise
Before you learn to talk.

For soon you'll learn to walk,
Then run,
And talk and sing a song,
And never be my babe again.
The babe's forever gone.
Little baby, take your time,
For while you're tiny, you are mine.

(Diane Woolley)

SICK Monster

My little monster is sick!

Poor monster... he suffered from high fever on Thursday.... we had to rushed him to KKH at night and thank goodness, the fever subside and he need not be warded.... Now, his fever is more or less better, but he got BAD cold & cough..... Poor, poor MONSTER!!

He also passed his BUG to his grandma, his daddy, myself & his uncle.... guess my monster is a super INFECTIOUS....*laugh*

I just hope he will get better soon and be his usual naughty self... he was ever so sleepy for the past 3 days.... he got this SAD LOOK in his eyes..... it seems to be saying "Help me!! I am trying very hard to keep awake & play with you, but I can't seem to be able to do so.... WHY???"

Learning to Walk

Ian seems so grown up lately.... he is learning to walk now.... He pushes his walker around my parent's place..... very scary to watch as he is VERY VIOLENT!!.... Misses him and am wondering whether my decision to go back to work is RIGHT?? But somehow, I know that I have no choice but to work as I need the $$ for both expenditure and security.....

Anyway, not to be diverted from the topic, I think he will soon learn to walk on his own.... won't it be fun to walk together with him??

Working HARD

Been at work for 3 days officially.... not tat much to do yet, but I am already feeling bored..... Need a change of job...... Went for 2 interviews last week, but both has yet to revert to me whether I am suitable for the job or not.... Am praying very, very hard tat both jobs want me.... This is because the job scope sounds very exciting and will be good for my career development.

I know tat RECRUITMENT is not for me as I am not very keen on tat aspect of HR job..... although it is a good exposure for me to get an overview of the whole HR, I am still not very keen on it.... so I am hoping REAL HARD that I can get out of here before it is time for my move.......

I am counting the days..... about 4 more weeks to go before it is DOOMS DAY!!...... All that I am looking forward to is my PAY DAY..... get the money to spend :-P

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY Ian

We celebrated his birthday on last Saturday, 28/04/07.... He is finally ONE!....

Welcome to MY PARTY

I look GOOD enough to EAT!!

Back at WORK....

Just start work today.....

Busy clearing e-mails..... Director informed that I will be going to recruitment from 1 June 07 onwards..... SUXS!!!.... Hope I can get a job soon...

Memories

I can't seem to sleep..... Am exhausted, but just can't seem to be able to sleep.....

I kept remembering the "ordeal"..... This time last year, I am at the hospital bed, worried sick about giving birth..... can't sleep then too......

Every time I closed my eyes, flashbacks of the labour pain as well as the actual delivery comes to my mind...... can't believe that 1 year has passed and my tiny baby is now a HUGE MONSTER...... how fast time past by...... it only seems like yesterday, he is small & helpless..... now, he is big and bullys all of us......

If I could turn back time, I want him to be tiny again...... able to hold him with just one hand..... seeing his innocent looks..... but as it is impossible to do so, I have to look forward to the future..... his first step, his first run, first day at school.....

On another note, I will be returning back to work on Monday...... returning with a heavy heart..... it will be nice to have an income again..... but truthfully, I will miss my MONSTER..... reading with him, playing with him, teasing him........ but all good things must come to an end........

Been memorable, but back to REALITY

It has been a memorable 2 months..... taking care of Ian...... falling in love with being a STAY-AT-HOME MOM, but it's time to go back to work......

Although, gave up a month's salary, I do not regret the time I spent with him...... managed to see him grow more naughtier and naughtier...... got closer to him..... teach him how to SHAKE HANDS...... the memories will always bring a smile..... He is going to be 1 soon...... How time flies..... it just seems like yesterday that I was worried about giving birth to him.......