A DRESSED-UP ME!!

Ian's EXCITED tots:

Daddy, Mummy & me went out today...... Had lots & lots of fun....

First, we went to Jacob Ballas Garden..... It was a hot day.... The garden was only so-so...... but the water play area was fun..... I think I played at the area for almost 30 mins......

Then we went to Mustafa..... I was tired, but Mummy said we need to buy some formal clothings for me for Uncle Zikri's wedding..... so off we went..... Wanna see my pictures?

Then off we went to Ang Mo Kio to eat at Pizza Hut.... I can't sit still at the place and I think Mummy was embarassed by my behaviour.... but since I am so CUTE, Mummy will get over this....*laugh*.....

Bye-bye
Ian

PS : Heard that Daddy is leaving me again..... this time for 10 days.... will miss him....

Trip to Jacob Ballas Garden

Heard so much about this place from Motherhood Forum that decided to bring my little MONSTER there.....

Can say that he really enjoyed himself tremendously..... and here's the proof....

BTW, Ian had decided that he is an ADULT rather than a little boy..... and the reason is because adults get to sleep late, while little boys have to sleep early..... *laugh*...... the things that children learns..... :-P

Choices....

Midnight.... past memories

It's midnight... but I can't seem to be able to sleep....

So many thoughts in my head..... I just found an old uni friend whom I lost touch for ages..... It seems that all our lives have changed..... She is still single and am now teaching in Melbourne.... It has always been her dream to work in Australia.... and now it came true.....

Talking about dreams.... I wonder what happened to mine??.... I always wanna do my Masters overseas.... get an experience of life outside of Singapore.... without my family.... being independent.....

But guess my dream is not meant to be.... do I regret it?.... I must admit that there are moments when I wished I could turn back the clock & fulfil my dream.... but most of the time, I am contented....

I have a wonderful family.... a hubby who dotes on me..... a son whom is simply adorable ....... Just can't believe that it been more than 10 years since I first met Wan..... But it seems like just yesterday that we met and fall in love......

The memories always bring back a smile.... I am so young then.... just 19 years old....... I was so carefree in NTU..... dating my seniors..... meeting guys in the chatline..... Dd I ever study??..... I guess I did study…. In between of all my dates of course…. :-P

Never thought I will fall in love at such a young age.... All I wanted was a fun relationship.... :-P.... But fate has different ideas for me..... I met Wan...

I never thought I will fall in love with him.... I remembered that I was crazy about this good-looking senior, Jase..... Wan was my sounding board..... the guy I went to get advice on Jase and the other guys I was dating...... We always called each other at night and chatted till the wee hours..... Then slowly my feelings for him change from friendship to slightly more….. I remembered very vividly that I told him that I like him on 13/01/1997….. a bold move for me…. I never had to tell a guy I like him before…. It is always the guy hinting to me instead….*laugh*…. Thank god it was over the phone, so not tat embarrassing for me…. And of course, Wan returned my feelings….. And we did not meet till a week or so later….. It is one awkward date….. our first “date” as a couple….. I remembered Wan trying to hold my hands….. He pretended that he is trying to help me cross the road safely…..

And that was the start of our love story…..

An Update....

Ian's RANDOM tots :

It been so long since I wrote in here.....

I am already 2 years old.... and Mummy & Daddy celebrated their 8th wedding anniversary recently..... Can't imagine why they waited so long to have me.... I am so cute... :-P.....

I have grown so much in the past few months...... physically as well as mentally..... I am a BIG 2-year old.... Most of my pants are getting shorter.... and now, I am also able to speak more.... but only Nenek & Atok seem to understand me fully....Sometimes, Mummy & Daddy can't understand what I am saying.....Think Mummy & Daddy have not been spending enough time with me......

I LUVVVVV to do my small to big puzzle.... believe it or not, I did the puzzle 10 times yesterday..... until Daddy & Mummy simply gotten sick & tired of doing it with me.... :-).... What can I say, I am a persistent little guy.... note that I am no longer a baby.... but rather a small man... *laugh*.....

June is coming to an end soon.... and July is just around the corner.... all of us are not looking forward to July.... okay, maybe Mummy is looking forward to July a little as she will be getting her performance bonus as well as mid-year bonus then..... but for me, I am really hating the idea of July where I will need to go for an operation...... Sometimes, I think I am so scared of it that I am getting nightmares because of it.....

But enough of the bad stuff... today, I am back at Nenek & Atok's place..... I will be eating EGG for breakfast.....

Till later.....
Ian

Challenging Times AHEAD......

2008 has not really been a good year for me.... almost half year has passed by, but nothing wonderful has happened.... instead, 2008 brought me uncertainities & worries......

Just hope the 2nd half of 2008 bring me better luck......

Brain Dead.... too exhausted

Been rushing to & fro... and using all my limited brain power that I felt just like this....

Handwriting Analysis.... what a wonder!

Your Fundamental Temperament — How You Approach Life
Fundamental temperament is what others will recognize about you most easily because it describes your approach to life. It is the resultant characteristic in our personalities from the impact of life during the formative years.

Your approach to life is highly self-protective. People will have a hard time understanding you or knowing what is on your mind because of your guarded nature. This reserved demeanor offers you discipline and control as positive attributes; lack of spontaneity and openness, and unnatural stiffness in the negative. Your behavior is monitored by suspicion, caution, calculation and fear of possible consequences for your actions. You attempt to uphold a facade of strength to protect yourself from your environment, knowing that the real you, the sensitive and vulnerable you, could not cope with the hurts and hardships life has to offer. By distancing yourself and concealing what is really going on inside, you are able maintain the control you need to protect yourself.

The downside of this fundamental temperament is that it robs others of truly knowing you and, in turn, robs yourself of the feelings of closeness and trust in others that could help you come out of your cocoon. Because it appears to you that people accept you as you are, and you know that what they see is not really you, you are the one who determines that their acceptance is not genuine, not them. Learning to expose yourself and experiencing genuine acceptance of that exposure will contribute to feelings of self-worth, which will give you the inner strength to match the outer strength that you so aptly display for the world to see.

(Note : Think it is true.... but I am sure many will beg to differ)

The Primary Motivation Behind Your Behavior
It is generally accepted that specific behaviors are the result of satisfying a felt need. For example, if you are hungry (the felt need) you will eat (the action to satisfy the felt need, also referred to as behavior). A need is different from a "want." You may need to eat, but you do not need to have a steak. There are numerous motivational theories from which determinations of behavior can be made. This assessment focuses on the three primary realms of being, mental, emotional and physical since they are essential to every person's individual sense of balance and well-being.

Your greatest felt need is in the emotional realm, which would indicate that much of your behavior is directed toward satisfying your emotional needs. Striving to achieve this goal will cause you to focus on day-to-day activities, or what may be referred to as the mundane (ordinary) aspects of life. You will seek the creature comforts necessary to give you a sense of emotional well-being. You need to know that your environment is secure; that you have a roof over your head; food on your table; feel loved, cared for and needed; and that you have all the "essentials" of ordinary contentment.

Your idea of essentials, however, is subject to inflation in comparison to what most people would refer to as essential. For this reason, you might be viewed as materialistic, when in actuality, the material comforts you surround yourself with are merely substitutes for unmet emotional needs.

(Note : Also true.... what can I say..... I am ONE materialistic person.....)

You are an "earthy" person, and willing to draw from your environment what you need. Expression of your individualism will be an active part of your behavior.

You learned at an early age to take care of yourself, and as such you will only trust your own instincts. This can prevent you from accepting the suggestions of others. You must have the freedom and the independence to explore for yourself. You will not be reigned in, fenced in and might be perceived as "hardheaded." Rather than jeopardize your independence by asking for help (even when you know you need it), you will attempt to resolve your own issues.

(Note : Once again, it is on the MARK)

You experience everything in life at an emotional level first. Mental and physical endeavors only have interest if they will assist you in fulfilling your emotional needs.

Life's Impact Upon You
Emotional impact and emotional memory are related. The person whom is greatly impacted by emotional events will hold on to the feelings of them much longer than the person who is impacted to a lesser degree. In essence, this sections deals with depth and length of feelings in the process of examining the intensity of sensuousness experienced.

At this point in time, emotional situations impact you strongly. Whether you respond immediately or not depends up your emotional instincts and control but it is sure that whatever you feel, you feel intensely. When you fall in love, you fall hard. When you feel hurt or slighted, the feelings can linger for days and holding a grudge is second nature. It is very difficult for you to get over anything that sparks your passion.

The depth of your feelings is what creates passion. You have a great deal of energy to invest and will pursue your interests with purpose. Your strong emotional memory keeps you committed to your undertakings.

(Note : Me committed??... Think I am more fickle minded)

You enjoy sensuous stimulants: fine foods, rich textures, etc., as well as sensuous endeavors. In this respect, you need to guard against over indulging. You might be inclined to eat or drink too much and if your passion is work, you can become a workaholic easily.

(Note : Don't think I am a workaholic.... but my dear hubby is sure to disagree... :-p)

Your Emotional Response to Life's Experiences
Our emotional nature is a combination of inherent and conditioned responses based on instinctual needs and societal controls. With maturity, we all learn that reacting exactly as we would like may not be acceptable behavior. In some cases, instinctive response will be moderated, in others, they can become stifled, dependent upon how each individual processes parental and societal influences.

Your emotional responses are controlled and border on non-expression. Others see you as cool, calm and collected, even unemotional and undemonstrative. You do not move into relationships or new situations quickly. Some people may tag you as noncommittal because of this. Even when you want to make contact, it is not easy to reach out or really communicate with others. In many cases, you might be less inclined to speak at length because to do so would mean to reveal more of yourself.

Your highly composed demeanor functions best where emotional displays are not the rule and you set for others an example for moderation. To you, your controlled behavior is both a benefit and an accomplishment. It enables you to feel more in control of yourself, and as such, more in control of life's situations.

A self-created obstacle of not expressing what is really going on inside leads to the possibility of unsuccessful personal relationships in which you feel misunderstood and rejected. It is hard work for you to reach the point where you realize that other people cannot read your mind. When they are left to their own devices to figure out what is going on with you, chances are they will be wrong. Additionally, pent-up emotions can lead to health problems.

You appear to most people as self-sufficient. You do not respond to pressure or retreat from others when your values are challenged. You will weigh all matters before making judgments and usually demonstrate excellent objective powers. You are not the type to intrude, especially into another's personal matters. Some people may perceive this as not being a caring person, since the social custom is to demonstrate concern by asking questions along personal lines. You do not fall into this custom because to do so would give license to another to intrude into your personal life and that is a situation you attempt to avoid.

You stand on your own two feet and expect others to do the same, all the while discouraging emotional dependency. You do not burden others with your personal pain or problems and are not particularly comfortable when they attempt to "bounce" their feelings off of you. Even your language is void of emotional words; rather than say "I feel," you are more comfortable with "I think." When you must deal with emotional displays, it is most natural for you to want to withdraw. Such behavior can result in leaving the other person more frustrated than before (which also serves as a way of getting even if you are angry) and the loss of that relationship becomes a possibility, since neither party can communicate effectively. You appreciate and build more solid relationships with people possessing similar emotional restraint.

(Note : I am not a very "feeling" person..... Can't handle emotional situations well..... feel helpless.... )

Problem Solving and Learning — Your Mental Processing Powers
While there are as many ways to approach a problem as there are types of problems, there are relatively few styles of mentally processing the information we have available: analytical, investigative, methodical and instinctive, or perhaps, nominal use of the mental faculties. It is possible that some people will possess more than one style, however, a dominant style will prevail. This evaluation addresses your dominant style. It is believed that our mental processing style is an inherent trait since it can be identified in the first scribbles made by a child.

You will work your way through problems from a sequential, one-step-at-time, process. Everything needs to fall into a logical and proper order before you can reach a conclusion. As a result, when you do find your solution, every aspect has been covered.

You require methodical instruction to grasp information quickly or can become frustrated, or even feel inadequate, when you do not have the opportunity to make logical sense out of what you are learning. You are at your best when you are allowed ample time to learn and perform your work. Time constraints that force you to perform your work quickly are least ideal because you must be able to do your work thoroughly.

(Note : I always skip steps.... so don't think this is applicable...)

This type of mental processing fosters creativity. You have an eye for form and possess good manual dexterity. You would enjoy occupations which allow you to build something or that calls upon your excellent logical deductive abilities.

The Scope of Your World and Your Importance in it
The scope of our world is limited by our self-identity to and with it. The result is an introverted or extroverted nature to varying degrees. Every person occupies a certain amount of innate space in which he or she is comfortable and will balance the self-identity with an equal amount of environmental influences.

Limiting your surroundings is important to your need for privacy. You are uncomfortable being out in front and, regardless of your emotional response level, you prefer one-on-ones to group interaction. You are a quiet, introverted type person, often serious and intense about life. Basically, you are shy.

(Note : Told everyone that I am a shy person.... but no one ever believe me.... see my handwriting said so.... :-p)

You are capable of exceptional concentrative abilities, blocking out your surroundings in order to pay attention to what you are doing. However, once your concentration is broken, it can take you longer than most to regain your focus.

(Note : concentration??.... I think my dear hubby will surely asked tat..... he thinks I am too easily distracted.... guess concentration only works when I like what I am doing.....)

An obvious strength of this ability is that you can apply yourself for long periods of time and attend fastidiously to the most tedious types of endeavors. At the same time, you are prone to tunnel vision, which inhibits your ability to see the total picture. You run the risk of "not seeing the forest for the trees." You might find yourself unable to bring a big project together quickly because of the amount of attention you feel compelled to give each part of it. There is the possibility that you will get stuck on one part of a problem and, therefore, be unable to work your way past a certain point because of the importance you give to that part. The limited scope you impose on your world can impede effective judgments unless you are willing to listen to someone who is capable of seeing the total picture.


Your Current Governing Philosophy
A governing philosophy does not reflect moods, rather it is a reflection of our attitude toward life. Additionally, unlike moods which are subject to change quickly, a governing philosophy is a faith in ourselves and life and only subject to change upon continued feelings of loss of control or hopelessness.

You move through life with a positive, optimistic attitude, with an underlying belief that no matter how bad things get, they will work out okay. While it is possible that you occasionally set yourself up for disappointment by believing this, it is only a temporary feeling. Your ability to believe in the positive eventually results in positive results.

(Note : Me positive??.....)

At some level you feel you have a calling, though you may not concentrate on it much. You are a spiritual person and know there is a purpose for you in this lifetime. Your philosophy to obstacles can easily accept that they are simply lessons along the way.

(Note : I have a calling??)

While we all have times in our lives when we feel overwhelmed, your special attitude keeps you from ever giving up hope and knowing that at the end of the storm, there is a rainbow . . . somewhere. It gives you a zest for life and the fortitude to keep going in the face of defeat.

Birthday....Part 2

Ian's HAPPY tots:

More photos from my pre-birthday celebration.....

2nd Zoo Trip

Ian's FRUSTRATED tots:

We went for our 2nd zoo trip on 21 March 2008, but my lazy mommy only downloaded the photos today..... so here it goes.....

BTW, I am more interested in the plants and water features than in the animals... :-P

It's MY BIRTHDAY

Ian's EXCITED tots :

It's my birthday today and I celebrated it at school.....

Finally.... a decision was reached

After much thinking... thinking.... thinking.... I have reached a decision...

A tougher decision has never been made before.....

Put my trust in my organisation in their promise to review my salary & give me a salary adjustment.....

Just hope my trust is not wasted on them.....

Now, I just need to live with MY DECISION!

30 MINS and counting....

and NO decisions YET!!!

Decision... Decisions.... DECISIONS.....

Time is running out.... and I have yet to reach a decision.....

Countdown to MY birthday

Ian's excited thoughts :

Just 4 more days to my 2nd birthday.... I am so EXCITED.... We will be celebrating my birthday at school.... yes, SCHOOL....

Mummy been very lazy lately.... she did not even update the blog to inform everyone that I started school on 03 March 2008... And the best thing, I really, really enjoy school.... but of course, my dear Mummy has to question "WHAT DID I LEARN FROM SCHOOL?"......

Side Track : Do you know that I know the names of many. many baby animals??... For example, a baby fish is called a fry.... that is so cute.... so technically when someone said "Let's fry a fish", it means "Let's baby fish a fish"..... *laugh*...... heard from Mummy that she just found more new baby animals terms for me to learn..... I can't wait to learn them....

Anyway, before I get too excited about the weird names that baby animals have, let's get back to the topic of my BIRTHDAY..... Mummy and Daddy been busy buying things to put in my gift pack.... and of course my birthday cake...... Let me share the picture with you..... it looks cute, right?

Should I or Should I Not?

Got an offer.... like the job scope..... reasonable increase in pay.....

BUT it is a 1 year contract.....

so

SHOULD I

or

SHOULD I NOT??

Another YEAR has passed....

Instead of counting candles,
Or tallying the years,
Contemplate your blessings,
As your birthday nears.

Consider special people
Who love you, and who care,
And others who’ve enriched your life
Just by being there.

Think about the memories
Passing years can never mar,
Experiences great and small
That have made you who you are.

Another year is a happy gift,
So cut your cake, and say,
"Instead of counting birthdays,
I count blessings every day!"

April.... reflections

Time passes by so quickly.... and now it is already April....

I always have a love-hate relationship with April....
Hate-> my birthday.... especially since I am growing older

Love-> the wonderful & growing gift-my son....


This April will be even more challenging for me.... If I can only have 1 wish for this birthday, I would wish for ********* ******** (can't write it out as wishes are meant to be a secret for it to come true.. :-P)

But let me share something... I just read an interview article and the quote "HITS ME ON THE HEAD".... DON'T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF.... it reminds me that sometimes, I need to slow down and enjoy life... and quit worrying... or at least worry less..:-P... Furthermore, it is a reminder that sometimes in life, you will face obstacles... and it is important to look at the BIG PICTURE & move forward..... but of course, it is always easier said than done....

But hopefully 31 is a good turning point for me and my family....

Future ...... Hoping for the best