Thursday, June 25, 2009

3 weeks has passed!!

3 weeks of maternity leave has passed.... and 9 more weeks to go before I am back to work....

I am kinda looking forward to going back to work as there are tons of things to be completed.... but I need to regain my weight first.... I am still so FAT & HEAVY.... 10 more kg to go before I can be happier with my weight..... wonder whether 9 weeks is adequate to lose all thed 10 kg.... think I need to hit the gym soon.

Plan:
1) Go gym every morning at 6 am..... exercise for 30 mins and then back to home to get Ian ready for school.....; OR
2) Go gym every night at 8 pm....

Will update again soon......

Friday, June 12, 2009

Whose WHO??

Baby 1

Baby 2


Can you guess which baby is ILEX & which is IAN?

TRAUMA??

Sitting down... staring at the PC.... deciding whether I should or should not write Ilex's birth story...... It has been a week, but the idea of writing it all down still gives me the shivers.... but sooner or later, I have to face all my fears.... so here the story goes...

04/06 (dinner time) :
We decided to eat in today.... fried the sardine curry puffs & the chicken wings that my mom & MIL gave us. Wan asked whether it will give me heart burn since they are spicy. I said should be manageable.

05/06 (2.00+ am) :
Woke up with a terrible heartburn. Very strong urge to vomit. Violently vomitted out all the food. Felt a sudden gush of liquid and saw that I was bleeding. Did not panic. Decided to monitor and see whether I continue to bleed. After about 10 minutes of continuous bleeding, woke Wan up. We called the poor doctor up at 2.30 am. The poor guy sounds so sleepy. He told us to monitor the situation and if I continue to bleed to go to the hospital latest by 8 am. As I did not have any regular contractions, decided to do some housework and tidy-up. Played computer games the whole night.

05/06 (7.00 am) :
Doctor called and asked for update. Told him that I stop bleeding at around 4 plus am, so not going to hospital. He told us to come to his clinic at 10 am instead.

05/06 (10.00 am) :
Saw the doctor and he said that I have dilated 2 cm. As I still do not have any regular contractions, to visit him again at 5 pm.

05/06 (5.00 pm) :
Saw the doctor again and I was about 2-3 cm dilated. Put on CTG machine for monitoring. Nurse told me to come back at 6.45 pm. So Wan & I went to fetch Ian from school. On the way there, I started to have regular contractions which is pretty close together.

05/06 (7.00 pm) :
Saw doctor again. Told him about my regular contractions and he advised us to go to Thomson Medical Centre (TMC) by 8 pm. So we decided to drop Ian at his Nani's place since my mom is not around to take care of him.

05/06 (7.00+ pm) :
What a drive!! Wan speed all the way to his mom's place since I began to have terrible contractions which is about 2-3 minutes apart. I was also beginning to bleed quite badly. After dropping Ian off, Wan again speed all the way to TMC. The journey there was already a torture to me since I am really badly, badly in pain. I do believe that I told him that my greatest fear is that I am already too late for epidural.

05/06 (8.00 - 9.23 pm) :
Arrived at TMC and was sent to the labour ward. Do all the basic preparation (eg. hooked up on CTG machine, etc). Was only 3-4 cm dilated, so asked nurse whether I can get epidural as the pain is simply beyond me now. She said that my contractions are very closed together (about 1-2 mins apart) and to give it another 15 - 30 mins and if I still can't stand it and I am not dilating, then she will call the doctor for me. I have no choice but to agree. The pain got worse and worse and worse, but I am dilating quite fast so only allowed to have the "laughing gas". Soon, I felt like pushing, but everyone keeps on telling me that I am only 8 cm dilated and should not push. WHAT DO THEY KNOW!! The pain is simply TERRIBLE. Think doctor came and I told him to just vacuum the baby out as I don't have any more energy to push. He was accommodating and did exactly that. So ILEX IHTSHAM KUSUMA was born at 9.23 pm. How I wish the story ends there, but the worst has yet to come!!

05/06 (9.23 pm) - 06/06 (3.00 am) :
Doctor started to stitch me up. While he was stitching me up, a nurse came by to inject me. I asked her why must I have an injection since I have this FEAR of needles. The doctor said that the injection was supposed to stop the after-birth bleeding, so no choice but to accept it.

Soon I heard the doctor saying that I still have not stop bleeding yet and he fear that I may have some internal tear due to my fast & intense labour, so he began to source for possible tears and stitch them up. Still the bleeding continues, so he asked the nurse to give me another type of jab which is to stop the bleeding. Time passes by and I was just keeping my eyes close but I was getting colder and colder.... The doctor started to rub my tummy/uterus rather intensely as he suspected that my uterus is not contracting and is pumping out the blood. He ordered the nurse to start an IV line on my left hand to give me something (not sure what it is).

Time passes by again.... heard something like I am still bleeding and losing blood. One nurse started an IV line on my right hand (yes, now I have 2 IV lines.... I was too dazed to really feel the pain of the needles). Heard doctor said that he need some blood test to be done and whether the lab is still open. They began to take my blood. Asked me to cletch and uncletch my fist since my blood is not flowing properly. I tried to do what they asked, but really felt so drained and cold. Was also feeling neusea and think I vomitted a couple of times (was later informed that this was a side effect from all the medicine they been pumping in me).

Time passes by again.... doctor came in and talked to me... said something like he needs me to sign an authorisation form for him to conduct an operation on me... He tried to explain the procedure, but I think I did not really understand at that moment....Was too tired, just want to close my eyes and sleep.... no energy at all...

Understand from hubby that the doctor told him that the procedure consisted of first they will do some check to find the source of the bleeding, next cut me up and stop the bleeding, and finally, if they can't stop the bleeding, they will need to take out my uterus. The doctor told him that choosing not to go thru the procedure might cause my death as I will just continue to bleed away.....

Was wheeled to the operating theatre..... was very, very cold so I told the nurse and they told me that it is normal to feel that way when I am closing that much blood. They put socks on my feet and got a warmer/blower to blow on my body..... was given some nice smelling gas and that was the last of my memory

06/06 (3.00 am - 9.00 am) :
Woke up and I was already at the ward.... The doctor came in and said that they managed to save my uterus. No operation was done, but it was a close call... He said that they been massaging my tummy/uterus for about 60 mins in the operating theatre and just when they are about to give up and operate on me, the bleeding lessens. So now they are going to monitor me till morning and if the bleeding stops, then I need not go for the operation. So the waiting game continued. He said that they have done 2 blood transfusion for me at the operating theatre since I am extremely low in blood.

All that I can say is that I make a very nice person when I am high on drugs... :-P... Hubby can testify to it.... I sounds like Ian... I say please, I say thank you and the best thing is that I can spell...*LOL*....

06/06 (9.00 am) :
The doctor visited me at the ward and said that everything looks better. Once again, he said that this non-stop bleeding is very, very rare. His last case was 4 years ago and it is a miracle that I managed to get thru it without taking out my womb.

06/06 (remaining of the day) :
I realised how traumatic I must have felt as everytime I closed my eyes, I dreamt that I am back at the labour ward giving birth and experiencing the whole event again. I can't sleep and kept on crying everytime I tried to sleep.... kept telling myself that it is over, but somehow my brain does not accept that.

Still low on blood so I got another pint of blood. The blood helps me to feel better and the doctor also said that they can take away one of the IV lines at the end of afternoon...

The rest of the story was pretty standard so shall not write anymore.... I was discharged on Monday, 08/06 and now, I am doing fine.... recuperating at home with my little Ilex and my bigger Ian.... *LOL*......

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Welcoming ILEX!!



Little Ilex was born on 05 June 2009 at 9:23 pm....

It's my 9th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY

Guess time really flew by fast..... It been 9 years since I been married....

Let's remember the years and time spent together.

2000 -> Got married
2001 -> Spent the anniversary at Sentosa. Nice hotel stay.
2002 -> Went to Mauritius. Wonderful memories.... :-)
2003 -> Went to Bintan..
2004 -> Went to Bintan... again...
2005 -> Went to Turkey. Saw lots of historical sites. :-P
2006 -> Got a new addition to the family, LITTLE IAN in late April.... so decided on dining at the cable car.
2007 -> Went to Phuket with Ian.... He poo-poo during our lunch date... :-P
2008 -> Went for dinner....
2009 -> Just got another new family member, LITTLE ILEX on 05 June 2009, so can't go anywhere.... *LOL*

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Our Bali Trip






BTW, if you are thinking why it seems like there are only my photos, it is because..... Daddy is shy so he disallowed Mummy from loading his photos.... while my dear Mummy is vain.... so since she said she looks fat, she simply refused to take any photos during the trip.....*sigh*.....

Monday, April 06, 2009

It's APRIL

Yes..... April is here and it means that everyone in my family is growing older.... *sob*... *sob*.....

Just 4 more days to my birthday..... 22 more days to Irwan & Ian birthday.......

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

My first 2 days at school

Ian's MUDDLED Thoughts:

I went to school on 12 January 2009..... Both Mummy & Daddy took leave that day...... but I wondered why..... they just left me at the front door & waved goodbye......*sigh*..... Anyway, the class was not so interesting so I decided that I should do puzzles instead..... afterall, Mummy said I must study at school and doing puzzles will develop my cognitive skills....*laugh*..... Teacher Linda left me alone as she knows that I will cry if she takes my puzzles away....

Anyway, I left school at 2 plus..... you may ask why so early???. It was because I refused to sleep.... Teacher Linda tried to pat me to sleep from 12.45 till 1.45.... but I still refused.... Finally she gave up and called Mummy.... and Mummy was nice enough to fetch me home

So that was my first day at school.....

The second day was less eventful.... It started pretty early.... Mummy woke me up at 6.15 am to have my milk and then off to bathe.... Then we go to school.... (PSSS.... I luvvvv my cow bag.... it is so cute....)..... At school, once again, I played with puzzle...(psss.... Mummy said that it was a naughty thing to do, but till now I don't understand why.... Thought earlier she told me that puzzles are educational.... so ain't I doing something intellectual???.... It is so difficult to please her.....)

Anyway, naptime came.... and Teacher Linda put me in a dark room by myself.... She switch on some music and pat me to sleep..... This time, I fell asleep at 1.30 pm till 3.30 pm..... It sucks as I miss my snack time, but my little friend told me no big deal as it is just some type kinda of sweet potato desert......

Ok.... enough writing.... need to go to school as today we got waterplay and I am SO looking forward to it.....

Tata

Monday, January 12, 2009

My 1st day at School


Today is my first day at school.....

Mummy woke me up at 7.00 am.... after drinking milk, we did some spelling while waiting for Daddy to bath.....

At around 7.15 am, I took a bath and got ready for school..... but as my parents are still getting ready, I decided to bum around on their bed....

We left the house around 7.45 am and reached school at 8 am.... I seem to enjoy the school, so the teacher told Mummy not to sit in with me. Instead, they will call Mummy if I start crying at school.....

More updates later......

Happy 2009!!


Atok bought me an outfit from Mecca & Mummy decided that I should wear it to show Atok how good I look.....

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Unique "Jingle Bell" Song

Wanna hear a personalised version of jingle bell???

Ian can sing it very well......

Jingle bell....
Ian smell....
Fifty miles away....
Phewww!!

Saturday, December 06, 2008

Is this a good pose? Need to show more lips?

FIDGETS!!


Mummy & Daddy brought me to FIDGETS at Turf City, and I had such a wonderful time there.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Friday, November 14, 2008

My STRONG BABY

Ian went for his ops on 10/11 at Mount Alvernia.... Both hubby & I were worried that the ops may affect him emotionally and of course, the physical pain after that ops....

But somehow, our baby showed us how strong he is.... I am so proud of him.... He went thru the ops with his head held high..... he did not cry from the pain, but rather he was his normal self.... bouncy, chatty, naughty self.... :-P

He has a high pain tolerance level that I began to wonder if he has any pain receptor...*laugh*....

Sunday, November 09, 2008

What a WONDERFUL surprise!!

Today, I was pleasantly surprised by Ian.....

It all started when we were lazing around.... yes, I simply luvv lazing around on Sundays... :-P.... anyway, as per usual practice, I was asking him some questions on opposites & animals and their young.... and something made me ask him to spell out some words..... I was actually just joking and not expecting an answer.... but to my amazement, he knows how to spell.....

Of course, it is not difficult words.... but some 3-letter words like... cat.... dog... pig... owl.... but the idea of him doing how to spell just amaze me.... I always thought that he does his spelling puzzle from the pictures, never thought that such words might go into his brain....

I guess that shows how much kids' brains can absorb knowledge... :-)

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Photos..... photos..... photos......

Mummy tidied up the living room, so she simply must upload the photo.... Both Daddy & I think it just looks the same..... but Mummy said both of us don't know how to appreciate subtle changes..... :-)


And now, the more interesting photos..... MY PHOTOS.....


Adilfitri 2008

Ian's EXHAUSTED thoughts :

Yesterday was Aidilfitri, and I went to so many houses that I am totally exhausted....

First, off to Nani's place for breakfast.... [Note: She fed me brayani.... ha ha ha...... it is both delicious & fattening.... ha ha ha.....] I did a naughty thing at Nani's place.... I pretended to drop the glass bottle and everyone was so anxious.... Then I beat Nani's flower with the remote control.......naughty me, right??

After messing up Nani's place, it is time to head for Atok & Nenek's place...... Think their place need some finishing touches like me climbing up on the sofa, tables & every where else...... Afterall, a grandson got to do what he has got to do.... ha ha ha.....

Saw Aunt Sid in the computer.... Think the computer has eaten Aunt Sid up..... similar to what happened to Daddy some time ago....wonder when will the computer sit her out again.... Computer spit Daddy out after 2 weeks..... but maybe Daddy doesn't taste nice, so computer decided to spit him out..... Aunt been away for almost 1 month, and no signs of the computer being tired of her...... but think computer is nice enough to allow her to communicate with her family during the festive occasion.....

Uncle Zikri & Aunt War War came, so it's time to move on to the next house.... It's my first Grantaunt house at Bradell..... Played with this dinosaur that moves super slowly.... always wander why things move slowly when going at maximum speed is something fun..... Mummy said I only got 2 buttons..... fully charged & totally flat.... but Mummy is always so weird...... and now she is making me as weird as her......

Anyway, next off to Uncle Farid house at Simei as Atok wanna see "Cik Yah"..... Uncle Farid's house is spacious so I enjoyed myself running around..... Then it is off to Granduncle Zroom Zroom home at Khatib..... I keep making the sound "boom" "boom" when I see him..... Heard Mummy said to Aunt War War that it sounds like a bomb rather than motorcycle sound..... Told you that my Mummy is mean.... she is forever laughing at what I say....*sigh*......

Anyway, soon it is time to head for Daddy's side of the family..... Drop Uncle Zikri & Aunt War War at their place as they let Atok take their car...... Went to Grandaunt Tik house..... Saw lots of flowers, so I just have to beg for one from her.... she was nice, she gave me a pink rose.... There are lots of kids around, but did not play with them as they are all too young for my taste

Then, off to Grandtaunt Noh house...... Saw a boy, Adnan, who reminds me of my Busu.... so I follow him around to ask him to play with me..... Daddy & Mummy agreed that I only play with BIG kids as Adnan is the same age as my Busu..... What can I say, I am a little ADULT afterall......*grin*

Finally, off to our last house for the day.... Granduncle Ngah house..... once again, I was running around tilll Mummy gave me my puzzle..... Then I settled down to put them all in place...... What can I say, I am addicted to puzzle..... Just give me a puzzle and I am yours forever...... Wanna buy me???.... Mummy said I come with full set of clothes, educational toys such as flash cards, puzzles, etc..... but she said once sold, no refund allowed.... ha ha ha.....

Anyway, back to Nani's place for a bath & my parents dinner..... Mummy called Uncle Zikri to ask him whether he wants a ride to Atok's place as afterall, it is already 10 plus at night..... We then drove to pick them up and drop them at Atok's place..... By then, it is already 11 pm..... and I am already dead to the world..... What do you expect???..... I only got 30 mins of power nap for the whole day.....

So that was my exhausting day..... Am spending the day with Mummy today as she took leave..... Atok & Nenek must be so happy as think they are too exhausted to deal with me ..... they need a break!!

Pssss.... Mummy took some photos of me..... she will upload them in the next post.