It is so FUNNNN.....

I am back again.... I have had a wonderful weekend for the past 2 weeks.....

Last Sunday, we went to Vivocity before going to Nani's house... I was supposed to try out the Gymboree Gym, but as I was asleep, we did not do that.Instead, Mummy allowed me to play at the playground on the 2nd level..... It was super FUN as they have water fountains there..... See me expression!

In view of the upcoming Christmas holidays, Mummy dressed me in a Christmasy outfit today.... I even got a fluffy bedroom slippers to complete the outfit (courtesy of Nani).... Don't you think I look good in it?

Today, we went to Science Centre.... Aunt Sid & Busu came along too..... As usual Daddy was being protective, but nevertheless, I have lots of fun exploring the place.... Wanted to play at the Waterworks exhibition, but as I did not have extra cloths, Mummy said NO!!!!!.... What a spoilsport... :-(

After exploring Science Centre to the fullest (at least I think it is to the fullest), we went to Jurong Point to have lunch at Pizza Hut..... Heard that lemon helps to make you thin, so decided to eat some.... It is certainly sour, but for the sake of staying thin, why not? :-P

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My first FINGER PAINTING experience

I'm back again....

Today, Mummy & I did some finger painting..... It was certainly a wonderful experience..... Had lots of fun.... as the saying goes, picture tells a thousand words... so here it goes.....

After making my clothes dirty, decided why not my body as well.... Daddy had a nice time cleaning me after the experience..... too bad, he did not capture the "clean" me.... :-P

My FINAL art work.....

After that, it's time to watch TV.....

Ian's Day OUT

Mummy said I can use her blog again today..... so here it goes....

We went out very early this morning...... We started the day by taking 962 to Sun Plaza for breakfast at MacDonalds..... my favourite place.....

Then off to meet Aunt Sid at Atok & Nenek's place..... We went to T3...... There is a BIG fan at T3.... it moves and moves and moves.... I LUVVVV the fan.... Had fun at T3 before we went for the tour as there is lots of space to run around..... but once we are following the tour guide, it is no longer fun as I can't get to run around..... During the long & boring tour, I fell asleep on Daddy's arms.... Almost slept thru lunch too.... Thank goodness, managed to wake up and Daddy & Mummy fed me cheese sticks.....

Then off to Downtown East..... My very first trip there.... We went to ExplorerKids.... the place was crowded, but I had lots & lots & lots of fun.... I climb and climb and made Mummy follow me throughout my climbs..... After my long climb, we play at the toddler area where there are balls of all colours..... Mummy forgot the camera, so no pictures of my climb, but there are some picture of me having fun at the ball area

After spending an hour there, I decided to become a steam train driver..... :-P

We took the MRT from Pasir Ris all the way home..... It was a LONGGGGGGGGGGG trip, but I was quite well-behaved..... doddle on my tiny pad & later listened to enjit-enjit semut song....

Wonder when we will be going out again???

A Grown-Up Me....

Look at ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is taken on the first day of Hari Raya 07.... I can walk now unlike my first Hari Raya...

I have 8 teeth now.... you can see all of them from my cheeky smile......

Mummy & Daddy has not been taking my photos lately.... poor me..... :-(

Anyway, I can count very well now..... Can count till 10..... Mummy trying very hard to teach me to count to 20, but to-date it is unsuccessful......

I can recognise & say my alphabets too..... but mainly capital letters..... have yet to master the small letters......

Daddy is BACK

Ian's GOODBYEs

Daddy been back for almost 2 weeks.... but I been too busy bullying him to write....

Anyway, Mummy & I went to fetch Daddy at the airport... We woke up REAL early and walked all the way to the MRT station.... or rather Mummy carried me all the way there..... I enjoyed myself both at the MRT and the airport..... Daddy's flight was delayed for almost an hour.... When I first saw Daddy, I was so excited, but later I cried when he did not immediately rushed to my side.... He rather waited for his lagguage rather than rushed to me.....

The days after his return was memorable..... have lots of fun playing with Daddy as Daddy was not working for a few days.... but all good things must come to an end.... Daddy returned to work and I am back at Nenek's place..... But never mind, Busu is having his vacation so I have a friend to play with.....

Now, Mummy is sourcing for a school for me... I wonder why I must go to school when I already know my alphabets & numbers (at least up to letter "T" & number "10")... but who understand Mummy.... she is so KIASU.... always wanna me be the BEST..... but guess she has my interest at heart..... But I hope I will not go to a full-day childcare as it seems like a very tiring things to do.... Maybe I shall try to convince Mummy to send me for a half-day child care at least until after my operation....

Did I tell you that I am going for an operation in May next year?? I am scared..... as I think it will hurt & I have to stay in the hospital for almost 2 weeks..... But that is another story....

Now it is time to sleep..... I will try to write again if Mummy allow me to use her blog.....

Till next time, hugs & kisses from ME!!
IaN

Daddy will be back soon.... Day 12/14

Ian's EXCITED Thoughts:

Mummy said that Daddy will be back soon.... I am kinda excited as then I can bully him....

Yesterday, I was a naughty boy.... kept on throwing tantrums.... Mummy was upset with me.... In the late afternoon, Aunt Sid, Busu, Mummy & I went swimming.... had lots of fun playing in the pool with Busu.... I was crying when Mummy carried me out as I still wanna play although I am already cold....

Then we went off to Atok & Nenek place.... Mummy tried to leave me there, but I simply won't allow it.... I asked Mummy to bring me home.... so unwillingly, Mummy brought me home.... As a punishment, I woke up a lot of times at night to teach Mummy a lesson....

This morning, I pooed before Mummy can send me over to Nenek's place.... so poor Mummy had to bathe me instead.... ha ha ha.... I made her late....

Day with Nenek is as fun as usual..... play a lot.....

Now, I am so exhausted that I am gonna SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPP......

Nighty-nighty

PS : The way I said my no. 4 is super cute.... :-P

Tiring Day.... Day 10/14

Tired, tired, tired, tired ME

I am so tired..... it is only 8 pm and my eyes refused to open.... Now I am almost at the sleep land.... but I know that I should let you know what happened today before I give in to my sleep......

Today was a wet cloudy day, so we did not go swimming..... maybe we will go tomorrow if it is a sunny day.....

Mummy brought me to Nani's place..... the ride to Nani's place was short as Mummy was speeding most of the way..... Think there is something on Mummy's mind as she usually go for speed whenever she needs to think...... but dun think she will share her thoughts with me....

The stay at Nani's place was interesting..... Nani fed me porridge, fruits and some ice-cream.... Nani also brought me to the playground where I show off my skills of alphabets & shapes (BTW, still can't tell the difference between triangle & square).....

Then at 7 plus, Mummy brought me home.... once again, Mummy was driving fast..... think Mummy really needs to get whatever that is bothering her out of her system.... maybe a good swim or walk tomorrow will cure her.....

Now, I think I better go to sleep as my eyes are drooping.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

It's SATURDAY.... Day 10/14

Ian's SCATTERED thoughts :

Had a good night sleep again last night..... I think I have finally got over me missing Daddy.... now I can sleep as per usual......

Anyway, it is Saturday..... I woke up at 7 plus am.... and Mummy made me MILK..... then we laze around on the bed before deciding to do intellectual stuffs again..... In summary, we did the intelligent blocks... (PS: I still don't get how to fix them together yet).... then we did Pattern Memory, First Memory.... We did lots of flashcards too.... Animals, Fruits & Vegetables, and Alphabets.....

After that, Mummy said she had to do housework and asked me to play by myself..... That was so BORING, so I decided to take out all the intelligent blocks and mess it up..... also all my drawing blocks, cars, my story books..... ha ha ha..... Mummy will need to tidy them up again.... :-P

Soon Mummy finished doing all the housework and gave me a bath..... I am so sweet smelling now..... Then he said le's eat breakfast.... Guess what I had for breakfast???..... My FAVOURITE.... raisins.... or rather I have to eat the bread along with it as well....

Mummy promised to bring me swimming, but the day seems like a cloudy day..... so maybe we won't go swimming..... wonder what Mummy will do with me if we are not going swimming.... maybe a walk at the park instead???

Till later..... me off to watch my Baby Songs VCD.... not the Animal one, but the ABC & 123.....

P/S : I am still confused about squares & triangles..... Mummy said Triangles got 3 sides and square got 4 sides..... but dun you think they look pretty similar???

Busy, busy Day... Day 8/14

Ian's TIRED thoughts :

Today is an extremely tiring day for me..... Mummy brought Uncle Zuhud & me to the zoo.... We arrive at the zoo at 10.30 am..... Wow, the carpark is already almost full.... We have to park at the Giraffe Section..... what a long walk....

Once we are inside...... we saw lots of animals, but I am not that interested in them..... rather I am more exicited by the tiny waterfall..... I scream my loudest scream the moment I saw it... Rather than explain what I did at the zoo, let my pictures do the talking....

Busu showing me the pictures of the white tigers..... Grrrrr

Busu & I at the Australian Outbacks

Me deep in thought while lookings at the Roos






Like my sea lions??










Help!! The croc has bitten my Busu & is now chasing me!

At around 2 pm, we left the zoo after eating at KFC.... I ate chicken again.... Boy am I unhealthy!!

I slept on the way to Atok's place and only woke up after an 1 hr nap.... soon, Mummy decided to go home.... The moment we reached home, we got ready for our swim.... BTW, I think my swimming outfit is getting too small for me.... Need to get a new one as I am very tall now....

At the baby pool, I realized that I could walk easily..... My head is already well-above water.... Mummy brought a couple of toys for me... my duck, the cube dog & pyramid rat.... we had lots of fun and only came up after 45 mins in the pool.....

I am so exhausted!!!..... Now, I am busy drinking my milk..... can't write anymore with my milk bottle in my hands....

P/S : I had a fall today at the zoo and hurt my lips.... poor me!!... It was all Mummy's fault..... I was walking down the stairs and slipped as I don't want to hold her hands.....wanna see the picture??

It's DEEPAVALI.... Day 8/14

Ian's HAPPY Thoughts :

Yesterday was a a happy day for me..... I managed to eat raisins..... Uncle Zuhud is not schooling, so I got his company the whole day..... I was so excited that I did not fal asleep till 12 noon... and that is only because Nenek made me sleep..... When I woke up at 3 pm, it is play time again.....

Then Nani came over to get me..... She brought me to Causeway Point, where I wanna walk on my own..... don't wanna any assistance.... it is fun seeing if BIG people can see and avoid me... :-P

Then it is home again.... waited so long for Mummy to return home.... wonder what MUMMY was doing that she has to come home late???.... The moment the I heard her keys on the door, I quickly rushed over and welcome her..... You should see the delight on her face.... :-D

Then Uncle "Yahoo" came to fetch Nani & Uncle Irwin..... He asked me how do I make YAHOO again.... :-P..... Then the bad part came along.... They all had to return home.... Tried to make Mummy follow them, but Mummy said CANNOT!!.... Why not??.... But nevermind, it ia over already.....

Mummy distracted me by playing matching and reading story books.... and then it is off to bed for me..... Not a perfect night, but I think I did not wake up that much.....

Now, while Mummy is busy.... I been a naughty boy.... I mix all my flashacrds together as well as the pattern memory & first memory cards..... Don't tell Mummy, ok??... Let her find out for herself & have a hard time sorting them out.... :-P

The day looks like it is gonna be a sunny day.... so we can go to the zoo...

Will update on my zoo trip tonight.

Tata

I DID IT!!!!..... Day 7/14

"I'm so PROUD of myself"... Ian

Finally, I managed to sleep throughout the night since my Daddy's absence..... Mummy might quibble about it as I kept on going closer & closer to her till she ran out of space on the bed.... but who cares, at least I managed to sleep throughout.....

Wonder if I managed to sleep throughout because I am so exhausted or is it because I finally got used to Daddy not being around???.... shall not dwell too much on it.....

Mummy sent me to Atok & Nenek place again this morning..... It was raining and Mummy was so lazy that we only left the house at 6.45 am. Atok was already waiting outside for me.... Mummy allowed me to bring my orange clock to their house.... and of course, finally she remembered that she has to bring the raisin along as well as I am a RAISIN monster..... I ADORES raisins..... can't remember when this "adoration" starts..... Maybe it starts tat time when Mummy feeds me raisins whenever I start to fuss in the public.....

Ok, can't write long as I got plenty of things to do..... raisins to eat.... pple to disturb.....

Tata

My last 2 days.... day 6/14

Ian's WANDERING Thoughts :

Mummy has been sending me to Atok & Nenek place for the past 2 days.... I am amazed at Mummy.... but guess she has no choice as there is no one else around...

I am sick & tired of educational games..... no one plays with me anymore..... all Mummy does is read books to me, do flashcards & memory games..... it all gives me a headache as it stresses my brain..... but I am getter better at pattern memory though....

BTW, I like my blue sandals better than my orange ones..... I kept wanting to wear them whenever Atok & Nenek bring me outside.....

Today, Mummy tried to leave me at their place, but I KICKED a big fuss and in the end, Mummy had no choice but to bring me home.... ha ha ha..... I will try to stay awake as late as possible so as to torture Mummy..... :-P

Mummy is EXHAUSTED... Day 4/14

Ian's Wandering Thoughts :

It is Sunday.... so that means no more spending time with Mummy till Thursday (it is Deepavali, which is a public holiday).....

Today, I woke up at 6.45 am.... tried to wake Mummy up, but she said she is too tired.... she only managed to drag herself out of the bed at 7.30 am and changed my diaper.... then we only took at watch at around 9 plus...... We went to Atok's place to pass him cold medicine..... Then off to Nani's place......

I look good today.... wore shoes..... and everything matches..... Even Nani thinks I look good..... Nani brought me down to play at the playground..... only after being exhausted, I fell asleep at 2.15 pm...... when I woke up at 3.30 pm, I decided to poo.... Mummy said it was so smelly..... MEAN MUMMY....

Nani gaves me a bath and then Mummy & I went back home.... Nani sent us to the car..... at first Nani carried me, but then I decided better let Mummy carry me, in case she got it in her head to leave me at Nani's house....

When we reached home, I played at my room while Mummy do homely stuff like putting the food in the fridge, etc.... Then we laze around on the bed till 6 plus when Mummy fed me my dinner..... We watch VCD while eating..... then off to laze around on the bed again while drinking Ribena.....

Then Mummy brought me to see Daddy in the computer again..... Think Daddy is really stuck at the computer..... i tried clicking the mouse at different places, but it doesn't seem to allow Daddy to escape from the computer.....

Now, Mummy put me in front of the TV to watch the Baby Song (Animals) VCD while I am drinking my night feed.....

Till later..... hopefully, tomorrow is a more interesting day for me..... Mummy did say she will bring me to swim & do other things on Thursday & next weekend as we are not going to Nani's place.....

Tata....

P/S - Can you pray that I have a good night sleep tonight? Mummy needs her sleep and I am afraid that she will leave me with Atok & Nenek.... I wanna sleep with Mummy!!! But I can't help crying at night whenever I thinks about Daddy not being with us.... :-((

A Day with Mummy ... Day 3/14

Ian's TIRED thoughts :

It is Saturday and I spent the whole day with Mummy..... Let's me tell you all about my day....

As usual, the night was a DISASTER..... I kept waking up crying.... Mummy has to cuddle up beside me.... but tat doesn't help much too as I miss Daddy terribly.... In the end, Mummy put Daddy's pillow on top of me at around 5 plus in the morning and I managed to sleep till 7 plus.... Once I woke up, I tried to wake Mummy up too, but she said she was too tired and just ignore me..... I played on the bed and finally, Mummy woke up at 8 am..... My diapers are heavy, so Mummy bath me.... It was nice......

After that, Mummy & I did some flashcards..... and when Mummy said she want to do some housework, I played by myself in my play room.... Mummy just peep at me once in a while.... I think Mummy managed to accomplish a lot.... Because at around 10 plus am, she started to play with me again..... Soon, she got tired of me and suggested we go outside to eat and watch VCD..... then, we go for our nap..... after lazing on the bed for some time, I fell asleep.... but my nap lasted for only an hour.....

My sleepy Mummy is still tired.... but she decided to play with me again.... At first, I thought she will bring me swimming, but in the end, she did not..... Instead, we went to Swensen's at Causeway Point for lunch cum dinner..... It was nice.... I bullied Mummy by making her carry me for most of the journey..... We eat the Kid's Meal : Burger, Fish & Chips as well as ice cream..... We did not walk around the mall.... instead, we went straight home after spending 1 hr at the restaurant.....

Once we are home, we played and read story books..... I was feeling so tired that I fell asleep after drinking my milk at 7.30 pm....

Tomorrow, we are going to Nani's place...... looking forward to it.... can b ully everyone there again..... :-P

It's FrIdAy

Ian's SUPERFICIAL Thoughts :

Nothing special happened today.... no new shoes.... no new excitements..... Can pretty much say it was a boring day....

But Nani called Atok & Nenek.... it is all because Mummy is not a good communicator... she doesn't give details....

Mummy also came late... heard from the winds that she had lots of fun at Sentosa..... but that's her story to tell as she did not share her day with me....

Anyway, Aunty Sid sent us back home.... she played with me in my play room while Mummy do some homely stufff like feed the cats, take down the tops and washing the bottoms.... Then Mummy swtich on the "Animals Song" VCD for me.....

Think there is something wrong with Mummy.... she can't sit still.... One moment she was sitting down beside me... singing songs and folding clothes and the next, she is up and running into the study room.... Then she run out again to play with me.... This goes on for about 30 minutes.... Wonder what she is doing.... I tried to follow her, but she said "SIT!!" as if I am a dog... but as I am born in the year of the dog & am quite well-trained if I may say so, I followed her instruction and sit down to watch the VCD..

After some time, I feel so exhausted... so decided to go to sleep..... I climbed onto the bed.... laze around for sometime.... and then EVIL MUMMY came in and said, why don't you sleep on the mattress instead.... Without waiting for my consent, she lifted me up and put me on the "SMALL & THIN" mattress.... Then something even weirder happended, she came back in and kiss me... she said DADDY NOT AROUND, SO KISS FROM DADDY.... Why does she kept saying kiss from Daddy?.... Why can't Daddy kiss me himself... I miss him so much.... There are moments I found myself walking to the door in hope Daddy is just late in coming home.... just like when Aunty Sid came back from her swim.... Thought it was Daddy who rang the doorbell.. Rushed over and to my disappointment it was not Daddy....

Do you think daddy abandoned me??? I don't believe so as I thought he loves me a lot..... but it been 2 days since I last saw him.... Do you think the computer ate him??..... WHAT MAKES ME THINK SO???!!.... Mainly because I saw him in the computer yesterday.... he looks small.... If computer eat people, then I better not come too near to it.... All this thinking is giving me a headache.... Think I shall go to sleep now....

Night - night

Oh Wat a Nite!!

Ian's AmAzEd Thoughts:

Last night was a rough night for both Mummy & me..... I woke up at least 4 times and Mummy kept feeding me Ribena (think 3 bottles of it).... My bladder can't take it & of course I found out that I wetted the bed again this morning.... but let me tell you about the night first.....

It is ALL DADDY's FAULT.... I saw Daddy at the computer last night.... and it haunted me.... Voices in my head kept waking me up..... I heard "Daddy has abandoned YOU!!".... I wanted to shout out NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!... but something stopped me.... A part of me asked why isn't Daddy here if he has not abandoned me??.... so I move closer & closer to Mummy.... hoping her closeness will help to answer my question.... but think it was not very successful....

Anyway, I am PROUD of Mummy.... I thought that I am surely in DEEP SOUP for wetting the bed again..... but instead, Mummy just carried me to the toilet to wash up.... No mean words or actions from her..... After I settled in my play room, Mummy started to clean up the bed covers & mattress..... The amazing thing is that she even drove me to Atok & Nenek place..... Thought that was daddy's job??... It makes me more confused...

Naughty me... Day 1/14

Ian's GUILTY Thoughts:

I was a super naughty boy tonight.... kept on crying since I reached home.... created lots of problem for Mummy.... I SCREAMED when she tried to change my diaper...... asked her to carry me all the time.... Really admire her patience with me.... She did not even raised her voice at all.... Rather she just cuddled up with me.... She put me on her lap and do flashcards with me....

Then she did something weird..... She brought me to the computer and on the computer, I saw Daddy..... The first thing that occured to me was "Why is Daddy there & not here??".... Mummy asked me to wave & do flying kiss to Daddy.... I found it stupid.... but guess ADULTS always want me to do stupid things....

BTW, did I tell you that I bought a new shoe today?? Atok & Nenek brought me to Sun Plaza.... Saw a wonderful blue sandal..... It lighted up when you press on it..... Fell instantly in love with it.... Even gave it a kiss.... Atok said we can get that it.... but I think something happened to the sandal after Atok paid for it.... When Atok passed me the sandal, it doesn't light up whenever I pressed on it.... I tried to communicate my displeasure, but don't think anyone paid attention.... Only after I screamed, they told me that it was another type of sandal as the sandal I fell in love with doesn't come in my size.... WHY DOES SUCH THINGS HAPPENED TO ME!!!

Anyway, it is all in the past..... I am tired now.... think it is time for my sleep..... will write tomorrow and let you know of the methods I used to torture Mummy.... Heard rumours that Mummy is going to Sentosa tomorrow.... Wish I could go with her.... I love the sand & water.... Talking about water, wonder if I could persuade Mummy to bring me swimming this weekend???....

Mummy OH Mummy : Day 1/14

Ian's DEEP Thoughts

Wonder above all WONDERS!! Mummy sent me to Atok & Nenek place today.... I am AMAZED she managed to get up on time.... she even took a bath first while I was deep in slumberland.... But of course she has to ruin my pride in her.... She did such a stupid thing!! She took the wrong car keys & the car will not let her in.... and she got to go upstairs again and change car keys.... Finally, we are off & away..... Mummy made a BAD comment about my weight again.... about how heavy I was.... I am NOT fat, but BIG BONED!!

Anyway, I am safe & sound at Atok & Nenek place now.... wonder where Daddy is.... usually he will kiss me goodbye... unlike Mummy who forgot to kiss me.... Such is the difference between my parents.....

Write later as Nenek said it is time for my bath as my diapers are all wet.... Will let you know of my day later..... Afterall, Mummy did say we will take a bus home tonight..... Look forward to having my own seat at the bus & climbing the overhead bridge again....

Laments of of a Child : Day 0/14

Ian's Thoughts

Today is a special day. Instead of spending the day with Atok & Nenek, I spent the day with Daddy & Mummy. Once I woke up from my nap, Mummy fed me my lunch and soon after, we went out to Admiralty. It was fun walking there as I made Mummy stop & look at every single things that interest me. Overall, the trip was fun except when Daddy made me shave my hair.... now, I look like a baby who just came out of DRC.

During the evening, we went to the airport... It was a wonderful place as I get to run around... and guess what?? My grandparents & uncles were there too.... something must be happening... but nevermind, they fed me MacDonalds... loved the fries with all the salt... but my spoilsport Mummy had to use the napkin to wipe away the salt....

Later, everyone seems sad.... they made me kiss my Daddy & asked me to wave goodbye to him... I obliged them, but was wondering why??... Won't Daddy be back tomorrow??... Adults are so WEIRD!!!...

After that, everyone accompanied Mummy & I back to the car.... Mummy gave me my Ribena to drink in the car.... The trip back home was kinda funny.... I was deep in thoughts and when I looked at Mummy, I saw that she was speeding.... I wanted to say, "Don't speed, Mummy!!", but was afraid to distract her... so I just kept quiet.... The upmost question in my mind was "Why is Mummy driving?? Usually she don't drive!! Where is Daddy??"

Things get weirder when we reached home.... Mummy put me down on the bed and start smsing away.... Then Nani called.... Then Mummy lie down beside me and told me to sleep.... I looked around for Daddy, but he was not there....

Nevermind, it is late and I am feeling sleepy.... guess the mystery will solve itself soon.... Good night!!

Updates

It been almost 2 months since I wrote.... Plenty of updates

Homefront
Ian finally learnt how to walk unassisted. Now, he is toddling around everywhere.... very cute!

He can say "cat", "car", "star", "moon", "woof", "nenek", "yak"... seems like all are 1 syallabus words.... :-P

Work
Started work for 1.5 mths already.... settling in pretty well, but somehow, don't really see myself there for very long.... maybe it is just the initial jitters... I think I shall just take one day at a time....

Work is interesting.... both my bosses seem nice.... environment is "so-so".....

Overall
I am feeling kinda OK.... things could have been better, but it could also be worse..... seems like 2007 is a year full of change for this family.... hubby got retrenched, then got another job.... Ian went for an operation.... me turning 30.... me changing my job..... I can't but wonder about what will happen next.... will it be good or bad??....

Forget it.... gonna watch tv now..... write later

Pls WALK, baby

The title explains it all.... am trying to encourage Ian to walk, but think he is too scared of falling down to try to walk unassisted.... *sigh*

He can stand on his own without any support, but he simply won't take his first steps..... *sigh* *sigh* *sigh*

On the work front, 3 more working days to go and I am home free till 06/08.... then it is back to work, work, work, work.....

Countdown to my LAST DAYS

The title sounds so MORBID.... as if I am leaving this earth.... :-P

Actually, I have tender my resignation & my last day here is 05/08/2007.... However, as I will be on leave from 01-03 Aug and 04 & 05 Aug 07 are the weekends.... my last day is technically 31/07/2007..... Just 20 more days to go.....

How do I feel about leaving?.... large doses of sadness.... Stay here been pretty fruitful.... get my promotion in 2006 (at LONG last).... my immediate boss is nice, even though a bit scatterbrain & no sense of urgency..... colleagues have been nice.... minimal politicking....

Most probably, the question on everyone's mind is "WHY IN THE HELL IS SHE LEAVING?".... There are moments when I ask tat exact question myself..... But I think the reason for leaving is mainly a change of job scope and environment.... I have been doing the same work for almost 5 years and I think a change will be good for me..... Furthermore, there is no way I can get another promotion till 5 years later (minimum).....

I do hope I am making the right choice.... my new job will be more interesting.... at least something different for me.... and I guess I hope after this stint, I will be able to do some lecturing or move up the career ladder......

Baby can CHOOSE

Ian knows his flashcard very well. He is able to pick the right pictures about 80% - 90% of the time.... not bad for a 14 months old baby..... He knows the sound of a snake as well..... super cute when he says SSSSSSSSSSSSSS..... and he can recognise all sort of snakes... at least those in his flashcards.... :-P

What a JOKE!

Ever tot that life will get easier once you decided to leave the organisation?

But it is actually not tat true.... first, you have to find the guts to pre-warn your supervisor.... and it is especially difficult when your supervisor is nice.... Then you will need to meet up with your director and talk it over with her as well..... Tat is EXTREMELY DIFFICULT.... you have to find a way to put everything in a diplomatic way.....

After talking to my director, I felt kinda upset.... she is peeved that I did not tell her about my decision earlier and of course the BAD TIMING.... kinda ruin my happy mood........ but I guess can't pleased everyone.... the most important thing I need to remember is that the move is good for my career and I should be feeling happy.... :-P

On the whole, I would say that I am happy.... seems like floating on CLOUD NINE sometimes.... it just feels good to make a clean break and move on..... hopefully, the move is a good one....

Tata and till future updates....

BTW: Ian can say DADDY.... but he refuses to say it to his daddy.... *laugh*....

Phuket... Phuket.... Phuket

Been back for a few days already.... but was too busy to update....

Nevermind, give short updates

09/06 - plane delayed.. Arrived at hotel only around 10 pm.... Nice BIG room... :-P

10/06 - eat breakfast (limited choices) at 8 plus and off to Karon beach... BIG WAVES, so can't swim... Ian played with the sand & get himself wet by splashing around.... at around 9 plus, went back to hotel & swim at pool... Ian enjoyed himself too much and doesn't want to come out.... He slept till around 1 plus.... Then took the taxi to JungCeylon (at Patong beach)... eat at the Indian restaurant.... guess that is the anniversary meal (so sad...*sob*....)..... Ian gave us a "wonderful" gift, he poo at the restaurant and we need to clean him up. Thank goodness, there is a toilet there....

11/06 - eat breakfast.... go Karon beach..... play at pool.... watch TV.... at 6 pm, went off to airport for departure.... arrived at Singapore around 11.30 pm.

On the whole, the trip is BORING.... but enjoyable seeing Ian enjoying himself.... but think guess if wanna go island hopping, need to leave him in Singapore....

Will update some other time.... too tired to write.... and got BAD cold.

7th Wedding Anniversary

Time certainly flies.... It just seems like yesterday that Irwan & I got married.... and in 2 days time, it will be our 7th wedding anniversary.... I do hope Wan had something special planned for the night.... like a romantic dinner under the moonlight...

I can just imagine the dinner.... and it will be funny rather than romantic.... just picture this.... we will be under the moonlight, looking into each other's eyes and suddenly, the sound "teh" "teh" "teh" gets louder and louder.... and we turn around and there sits our little MONSTER in his baby chair beside our table asking us to pay attention to him and feed him more food.... A total spolier, isn't it??? :-P

So let's see wat the anniversary turns out to be.... I will update on the actual vacation & celebration next week....

Till then....

A Poem for DADDY...

Ian wanna do something special for his 1st Father's Day, but as he can only baby-talk, he delegated the task to me.... so especially for my sweet hubby, this poem selected by little MONSTER thru telepathy just for you.... :-p

A Little Boy Needs Daddy

A little boy needs Daddy

For many, many things:

Like holding him high off the ground

Where the sunlight sings!

Like being the deep music

That tells him all is right

When he awakens frantic with

The terrors of the night.

Like being the great mountain

That rises in his heart

And shows him how he might get home

When all else falls apart.

Like giving him the love

That is his sea and air,

So diving deep or soaring high

He'll always find him there.

Painting of Ian

Just wanna share how the Ian will look like as an angel in a watercolour painting .... :-P

Remembering...

Sometimes when you read a sad blog.... especially a blog where the mum lost 3 kids to stillbirth and premature labour, it hits you real hard that life is not about finding the perfect job.... getting the most $$ you can get.... but rather, it is to be thankful for the little moments that you have with your love ones.....

I am so very grateful for the birth of my little MONSTER... yeah, had quite a difficult time conceiving him.... but the pregnancy & delivery was quite a smooth one.... sure, there are those frightening moments of him being a DS kid... some issues with his testicles and penis.... and overall, shouldn't I be grateful that at least he is physically there for me to hug and kiss.... and of course, scold & nag.... whenever I feel like it.....

There will be obstacles and more worries along the road.... will he be a smart kid???.... able to excel in whatever field he wants???.... but I think I will always have to remember to be thankful that at least I have HIM....

Can I imagine a world without MONSTER?.... To be truthful, I really dun know..... I guess I rather not find out....

Looking forward to PHUKET

We are going to Phuket on Sat.... I am so excited....

My little monster is getting noisy & more annoying.... forever talking in baby language..... he does not stop talking unless he is sleeping.... :-P..... So I can just imagine him talking & talking & talking in the plane, in the car and certainly when at the beach....

Anyway, wanna share his studio photo.... all of us like this picture the best!

UpDaTeS

Just talked to my boss..... will most prob stay in training for another 2 weeks before moving over to recruitment..... is that good or bad news?

Still waiting for *** to call me & ask me to come down to sign with them.... wonder when will they asked me to come down??.... Anyway, went for another interview today.... interview seems quite positive.... but on the other hand, most interviews which I think is positive does not want me.... wonder will it be different in this case?

Anyway, hubby, monster & me will be off for our FIRST vacation as a family this Saturday...... hope the vacation is memorable and interesting..... I can just imagine monster's face when he sees the beach.

More Updates

My colleague who took over my portfolio is leaving.... does that mean I have to take over my portfolio again or will I move over to recruitment?

Guess that question will only be answered on Monday.... or Wednesday.... or never.... :-P

Wonder what will happen if I tendered my resignation on Monday too? I can just imagine their faces.... but if I wanna keep my bonus, I have to endure till end of July.... and then move over to my next career...

Got a JOB OFFER

Got a job offer.... but somehow, my feelings are EXTREMELY MIXED.... happy that someone wants me.... sad that was not offered a higher pay... just $53 (1.2%) more.... pathetic, rite?? :-P .............. But a change will be good for me.... I just hope they are willing to wait till 01/08/2007... or I will have to forfeit my salary revision bonus & mid-year bonus as well.... kinda sad!!

Will update when I have more news update.....

Tata... and I am looking forward to my weekend

Baby Song

At first you didn't lift your head;
You didn't know to smile.
The time before you knew my voice
Seemed such a long, long while.
I couldn't wait for you to roll,
And then to sit and clap.
And now you're off and crawling,
Not helpless in my lap.

Why didn't someone tell me
How fast a baby grows,
That every little baby stage
Soon comes, but sooner goes.
So I'll enjoy the fleeting time
Before you learn to walk.
And treasure every tiny noise
Before you learn to talk.

For soon you'll learn to walk,
Then run,
And talk and sing a song,
And never be my babe again.
The babe's forever gone.
Little baby, take your time,
For while you're tiny, you are mine.

(Diane Woolley)

SICK Monster

My little monster is sick!

Poor monster... he suffered from high fever on Thursday.... we had to rushed him to KKH at night and thank goodness, the fever subside and he need not be warded.... Now, his fever is more or less better, but he got BAD cold & cough..... Poor, poor MONSTER!!

He also passed his BUG to his grandma, his daddy, myself & his uncle.... guess my monster is a super INFECTIOUS....*laugh*

I just hope he will get better soon and be his usual naughty self... he was ever so sleepy for the past 3 days.... he got this SAD LOOK in his eyes..... it seems to be saying "Help me!! I am trying very hard to keep awake & play with you, but I can't seem to be able to do so.... WHY???"

Learning to Walk

Ian seems so grown up lately.... he is learning to walk now.... He pushes his walker around my parent's place..... very scary to watch as he is VERY VIOLENT!!.... Misses him and am wondering whether my decision to go back to work is RIGHT?? But somehow, I know that I have no choice but to work as I need the $$ for both expenditure and security.....

Anyway, not to be diverted from the topic, I think he will soon learn to walk on his own.... won't it be fun to walk together with him??

Working HARD

Been at work for 3 days officially.... not tat much to do yet, but I am already feeling bored..... Need a change of job...... Went for 2 interviews last week, but both has yet to revert to me whether I am suitable for the job or not.... Am praying very, very hard tat both jobs want me.... This is because the job scope sounds very exciting and will be good for my career development.

I know tat RECRUITMENT is not for me as I am not very keen on tat aspect of HR job..... although it is a good exposure for me to get an overview of the whole HR, I am still not very keen on it.... so I am hoping REAL HARD that I can get out of here before it is time for my move.......

I am counting the days..... about 4 more weeks to go before it is DOOMS DAY!!...... All that I am looking forward to is my PAY DAY..... get the money to spend :-P

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY Ian

We celebrated his birthday on last Saturday, 28/04/07.... He is finally ONE!....

Welcome to MY PARTY

I look GOOD enough to EAT!!

Back at WORK....

Just start work today.....

Busy clearing e-mails..... Director informed that I will be going to recruitment from 1 June 07 onwards..... SUXS!!!.... Hope I can get a job soon...

Memories

I can't seem to sleep..... Am exhausted, but just can't seem to be able to sleep.....

I kept remembering the "ordeal"..... This time last year, I am at the hospital bed, worried sick about giving birth..... can't sleep then too......

Every time I closed my eyes, flashbacks of the labour pain as well as the actual delivery comes to my mind...... can't believe that 1 year has passed and my tiny baby is now a HUGE MONSTER...... how fast time past by...... it only seems like yesterday, he is small & helpless..... now, he is big and bullys all of us......

If I could turn back time, I want him to be tiny again...... able to hold him with just one hand..... seeing his innocent looks..... but as it is impossible to do so, I have to look forward to the future..... his first step, his first run, first day at school.....

On another note, I will be returning back to work on Monday...... returning with a heavy heart..... it will be nice to have an income again..... but truthfully, I will miss my MONSTER..... reading with him, playing with him, teasing him........ but all good things must come to an end........

Been memorable, but back to REALITY

It has been a memorable 2 months..... taking care of Ian...... falling in love with being a STAY-AT-HOME MOM, but it's time to go back to work......

Although, gave up a month's salary, I do not regret the time I spent with him...... managed to see him grow more naughtier and naughtier...... got closer to him..... teach him how to SHAKE HANDS...... the memories will always bring a smile..... He is going to be 1 soon...... How time flies..... it just seems like yesterday that I was worried about giving birth to him.......

SAD.... sad.... SAD

I am feeling lost once again..... just realize that I won't have my colleagues around me anymore once I return to work...... That makes me feel like I shouldn't return to work at all...... very low motivation to return..... but what can I do????? NO JOB OFFERS at all

It is just simply too depressing to talk about it

DEPRESSIVE WEDNESDAY

Just got the news that I did not get the *** job..... very depressing, but kinda expected too as I know that if I had gotten the job, they would have informed me by now..... But it doesn't make it easier to accept the news.....

The only thing in my mind is now WHEN will a good job offer comes along...... Sometimes it seems like no company wants me..... I know I should be more patient, but my patience is slowly, surely running out......

Monday Blues

I got MONDAY BLUES.... thinking when will I get a good job?......

My Little TIGER

It has been a memorable 2 weeks.....

My baby went for his operation and shown me how strong he is.... :-P.... He did not seem to be in much pain and was acting as usual after the operation......Very proud of him..... Almost 10 months have passed since his birth and he has grown so much..... grown so naughty and intelligent..... I am kinda glad that I have taken so time away from work to spend time with him..... managed to play and interact more with him although he seems NOT SO FOND of my cooking.... :-D

I am looking forward to more developments from him..... wanna see him do many more things.... Anyway, wanna share a picture of him..... my personal little tiger..... :-P

Doesn't he look cheeky?..... He got this twinkle in his eyes whenever he is up to no good.... and he knows how to pose for pictures.....

Another 2 pictures of him chasing the camera.... :-P

DEPRESSION

I felt so depressed today.... just feel as if I have no hope of ever getting the job that I want..... I feel like crying..... CRY my heart out....

No one understands how I feel.....

My last week at Work

This week is technically my last week at work.....

From next week onwards, I will be taking care of my baby monster FULL-TIME..... will I be able to cope?? No one seems to have confidence in me..... kinda disappointing when I am the MOM!!.... Everyone is expecting me to FAIL.... but truthfully, I dun think I will fail.... I imagine myself & him wondering around at pool, shopping mall, going for lessons, etc.... but maybe reality will not be so perfect.... :-P

But I do think I should try and see whether I can be a good SAHM... afterall, I dun seem to be getting any job offer..... Went for another interview last FRIDAY & got another one tomorrow..... but the one tat I been waiting for seems to elude me...... I really wanna get TAT JOB, but dunno when will I get to know the outcome..... I am just waiting for the letter to let me know tat I am unsuccessful..... afterall, the chance of getting the job seems getting smaller & smaller as days pass by.....

WORRY WART.....

My hubby got a job offer.... hopefully, it will turn out well for him....

For me, days are getting bleaker and bleaker..... just got news yesterday that my boss is pregnant & will be giving birth in late Jul 07..... she may not be coming back to HR after her maternity...... There is also no replacement for my colleague who is leaving the company from 1 Mar 07 onwards.... Feeling very, very depressed..... don't wanna return back to work after my NPL..... I wanna get a job soon.....

I have more or less found the job I want, but no news from the organisation yet.... I am praying hard that I am found suitable for the job..... I need to have a break.....

Just got a call.... tat company I went for the interview yesterday called me & more or less offered me the job..... they just wanna me to redo my CV to make it more tidier and I am supposed to e-mail the guy.....

WHAT SHOULD I DO???!!!

My NO PAY LEAVE is approved

My NO PAY LEAVE is approved.... technically, I will start my NPL on 29 March - 30 June 2007..... will only return to work on 01 July 2007..... will I be back?..... I really hope NOT!!!!

I am desperate for a change and am searching for a job extensively...... Went for an interview yesterday, but it is not what I want..... I want the *** JOB!!.... That job is more exciting and challenging and I like the place too..... so I pray hard that I will get the job..... Will only the news (whether good or bad) by end of January.... so I can either cry or laugh out loud.....

Actually being an FULL TIME HOUSEWIFE is not tat bad..... I will have more time to spend with my baby monster..... but I think I will be bored by end Feb or Mar

Anyway, gotta run..... write later

IsNi the WORRY WART!

I been feeling depressed lately..... worried whether I would be able to find the job that I really want...... worried whether my family finances will be ok in 2007......

2007 just started and there is 11 more months to go...... and I am already giving myself lots of baggage to carry..... I wish I can stop worrying, but I can't....... so all I can do is to look more intensively for jobs and pray hard that my hubby will also get a job that he wants......

Will be going for a job interview this afternoon and hope for the best....

Till later

Ian - The BIG BABY

I'm back......

Ian is now about 8.5 mths old.... he is so much naughtier now......

He seems to have my character...... he wants his way & am not shy about it.... But he is so much fun to be with now..... He likes to dismantle & make a mess from his toys.... He can't seem to stand tidiness...... :-P

Anyway, I just took a picture of him all swaddle up just like a newborn......

Compare & contrast how much he has grown & changed.... :-D

Its' FRIDAY

Friday is gonna be over soon..... and it's the WEEKEND again.....

I went for 1 interview yesterday and I really like the job...... I really, really hope that I can get it.... The challenges at the new job is very attractive and I feel that it is really time for me to move on..... Guess all I have to do is wait & see whether I am lucky enough to get picked..... Wish me luck, ok?

Hubby is also sourcing around for a job..... Technically, he been unemployed for 1 week..... Hopefully, he will also get more interviews and get a job that he really wants within the next month or so.......

Right now, the future is so uncertain...... with both of us looking around for new opportunities..... who knows what may happen!..... Just hope that it will be GOOD!

Can't think of what else to write..... so tata and will keep you updated of my JOB HUNT!

12 days

Only 12 days of the year has passed, but what 12 DAYS it been.... so many things happened....

I will be going on away(subject to my Director's approval) from 12 Feb 07 onwards..... 25 days of vacation leave and from 28 March onwards, I will be on no-pay leave till end June 2007.... That means no pay for 3 mths & 4 days..... It takes me lots of guts but guess I need the break and time to search for another job......

But what BAD timing it is.... my hubby is also UNEMPLOYED as at today..... who knows when he will get a job..... I really hope it will be soon..... It is not as if we don't have savings to tide us over...... but it is just the feeling of insecurity..... But I can do now is pray hard that all these happened for a good reason and tat the months ahead is much better for the family......

I guess these feelings of insecurity is the main reason why I keep delaying having a child.... with a child, it means more commitment and responsibilities..... and for a person like me who is DAMN insecure/pessimistic, it is scary..... fear of being unable to give my child the best of everything.....

I really need to learn to be more positive & believe that there is always a silver lining in every cloud.... but it is hard.... I think I am like the ant who keeps on saving for a rainy day and never learn to enjoy life experiences......

With the BIG 30 approaching, I have more things on my mind..... Do I wanna continue on this life path or is it time for a MAJOR change?..... I really need to think things through..... But I guess finally, all I want is security..... but security is just AN ILLUSION..... something that is so fragile and can be torn away anytime....

Before I start to be so PHILOSOPHICAL... let me end it here.....

2007

It is 2007!

Yesterday, hubby & I left Ian with my in-laws & went for the Civil Service Club dinner..... it was kinda fun..... but we left the place at 10.30 pm and went straight home...... no NEW YEAR PARTY for US!!!

Guess we are getting too old for the parties.... :-P

Anyway, hope 2007 brings us prosperity ($$$$), luck & happiness......

Till later

Ian's Room

Wanna see Ian's room?

Our New House

We have finally settled down at our new place.... Now with the cats confined to the yard, utility room & kitchen, our living area is much nicer.... I have uploaded the pictures for viewing.....

Enjoy............. Will upload more soon.....

Mummy & Ian

We are MOVING HOUSE......

I am so excited.... we are going to move to our new place....

Ian's room is so cute.... will upload the picture soon.... it is Winnie the Pooh & Friends theme.... one wall is full of their pictures & the other wall shows his name & his baby picture..... :-P

The living room also looks good..... will upload the picture of my new home soon....

I SCREW UP

Went for an internal job interview today.... and it went terrible... I think I SCREW IT UP.... The interviewer asked very CHIM questions and somehow, I don't think there is a job fit between the job and me.... and down the drain it goes.... *sob* *sob*.....

Anyway, tomorrow is Hari Raya..... so SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all.... :-)

TIME FLIES.......

Time certainly flies... Ian is more than 4 months old already.... he has grown so BIG.....

He can flip very well now.... learn how to complain whenever something does not go as he wanted it.... he also seems to wake up every night at around 3 am.... the BEWITCHING hour... :-P

Ian certainly bring a smile to my face..... although, it has been exhausting since I return to work, I still never regretted having him..... he can makes me laught and smile at his antics.... although of course, there are moments when I just need to scream from the tiredness....

Let me share a pic of him

Back to Work

It is only my 2nd day back at work.... and it left as if I never left the job.... dunno whether it is good or bad...... guess the good thing is that I am in the momentum of work.... but the bad thing is that my workload is still the same..... same old projects..... same old work....

I am kinda bored already..... wanna seriously leave and do new things..... am tempted to go on NO PAY LEAVE and begin something new...... but my concern is FINANCIAL..... I can't do without my pay..... no more extra money to shop and buy new things for Ian..... can't splurge on nonsensical things for him.....

So it seems like I am stuck here till Jan 07.... and then can slowly source for a job..... hopefully, some company will still want me.....

Gotta run now as boss wanna have a meeting to discuss handover now.....

Job... Job.... Job

I got a JOB OFFER today..... but it is kinda disappointing as they are only willing to offer me on my current salary.... and this means that I will technically take a cut in leave benefits as well as my year-end bonus......

But it does feel good that at least they want me.... sometimes, I think it is better for me to take up this offer as afterall, it is best to start anew.... It is because I am afraid that I can't perform up to expectation in my current job after being away for almost 3.5 months.....

But that is another story..... right now, just take a look at my GIANT BABY.... he is growing at a very fast pace....... growing larger and larger every day..... now, he has a temper and will scream the house down if he did not get what he wants immediately..... but once, he gets what he wants, he will stop screaming and becomes a sweet baby again..... WHAT AN IRONY!!!.....

Anyway, I will be going back to work tomorrow and will continue to update on what is happening in my life.....

CIAO!!!

Looking at YOU BABE!!

One of THOSE DAYS

Today is one of those days where my mind wanders and I have many lousy thoughts in my head.... kinda feel depressed..... thought back of the OLD DAYS when I was single and young...... Going to uni..... dating various types of guys..... basically, life was much simpler then....

Now, life is so complicated..... I am a MUM.... but sometimes, I feel so inadequate in my role as a MUM..... and the worst is that I felt torn..... torn between WORK & HOME........ There are moments when I feel like escaping away and leave my responsibilities....... Take a LONG VACATION alone and pretend that I am young and carefree again.....

But it is impossible to do so..... What I can do instead is to move on.....

Anyway, enough of my depressing mood..... let me update on what has been happening with Ian.... He has grown bigger now.... slightly more than 6 kg.... and he smiles and babbles when people chat with him.....

Ian's 2 Months Old

Time really flies...... 9 weeks of maternity leave is already over and I only left with 3 more weeks of maternity leave..... Soon, I will need to decide whether I want to return to work in August or September.....

But enough of that..... let me update on Ian's development..... He has grown so BIG and HAPPY.... he tends to smile at me and Wan..... and he has such a sweet smile..... Sometimes, he is cranky, but most of the time, he is an easy baby..... I shall miss him when I need to return to work...... Ian has also learnt to suck his fingers..... he seems to prefer his fingers to his pacifier..... guess his fingers taste nicer..... :-P...... Now, just need to make sure that his fingers are clean......

Just went to the Polyclinic with him today..... he has not poo for 6 days, but the doctor said he is not constipated..... so just have to monitor whether he poo in the next few days.... Hopefully, he will poo within the next few days.....

Enough update for today. Will try to update again soon.

Ciao!

Ian's First Month

The above photo was taken on 03 June 2006..... see his big eyes.... He is alert and happy.....

6 weeks have passed and I only got another 6 more weeks of maternity leave..... time really flies..... It started me thinking on whether I should take another month of vacation leave or should I come back on 1 August 2006.... and work 4 days a weeks.....

Both alternatives have its advantages and disadvantages..... One of the major advantage of taking an additional 1 month leave is that I will have more time to spend with Ian without having to think about work at all..... but the major disadvantage is that once I return to work in September, I will have minimal time to play & teach Ian things as weekends will be going to grandparents' place

If I return to work earlier and work 4 days a week, it means that I will have 1 day to play with Ian and I could spend this day teaching him new things...... but of course, I will also be affected by work..... Truthfully, there is no ideal solution to this problem.....

There are moments where I felt that I should just take no-pay leave till December 2006.... but there are issues to be considered as well..... such as forfeiting my pay, whether I will be bored at home....

What should I do???..... I will need to think this through and decide on what step I should take by end of June..... because I will need to inform my boss by mid-July if I intend to come back to work on 01 August 2006.....

Well, will keep you updated of my decision....

Ciao!!

Finally, managed to upload Ian's photo.... anyway, this is a photo of him on his first day on Earth..... He got my nose..... and looks like a Chinese boy..... now, he has turn darker and beginning to look more like Daddy..... but with Mummy's nose..... no longer as cute as his first few days....

He has also grown crankier and more demanding..... :-P

Anyway, we will be going to the PC Show tomorrow and hopefully, Ian will behave himself.....

Till next time.... CIAO!!

IAN'S DAY OUT

We brought Ian out yesterday..... The itinerary is as follows:-

11 am : To the doctor
12 noon : To daddy's office
12.30 pm : To ICA to collect passport
1 pm : To Bugis Junction for lunch & shopping
3 pm : To mummy's office
4.30 pm : To IMM

The day out was very interesting and educational.... :-P...... but got a few shocks..... Ian's poo was super liquid and it stained his clothes at IMM..... was worried that he is suffering from stomach pains as he might have drank not so warm milk at lunch..... but everything turns out to be fine.... he is well....

Tomorrow, we will be bringing him to KKH & paternal grandparents place...... and on Sunday, Ian & I got to go for our Hep B jabs..... it will be super OUCHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.... I hate injections and am thinking of skipping the injections.... maybe I will just hide at home and let hubby bring him for the jabs.... :-P

I am back again....

Yesterday, went to Holland V to order the first month cake.... It rains, so no choice, have to choose the cake myself as hubby is too worried about Ian getting wet and falling sick..... He is always so worried about his precious baby.... sometimes, think he should be the mother instead.... :-P ..... Anyway, decided on a picture of a cartoon baby boy pushing a gift & with Ian's full name written on the cake.... hopefully, it will look and taste good as well.....

I am looking forward to this Thursday where we will go and distribute the cakes as well as collect Ian's passport..... and of course, the fact that after this weekend, I can bring him out anytime I want..... Wanna go shopping for new clothes as well as more baby thingies for Ian.... afterall, it is the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE .... But think hubby will have something to say about it as usual.... He will be once again worried about his precious baby.... But all tat is another story..... shall update you on our first long outing this Thursday.....

Ciao!

It has been 3 weeks into my Maternity Leave.... Technically, I have 9 more weeks left before I have to report to work..... However, if I decided to clear my 2005 Vacation Leave and a bit of my 2006 Vacation Leave, I will only need to report to work on 04 September 2006..... but do I want to do that? I am not too sure.... maybe I will just clear some of my 2005 Vacation Leave and report back to work on 01 August 2006..... that way, I will have some vacation leave to clear during the festive ocassions....

What has been happening at home? Nothing much..... things have more or less fallen into a routine..... wake up at around 6 plus am..... pump my milk..... bathe Ian with hubby..... feed Ian..... surf net for a while..... take care of Ian..... It is not so bad..... just that night time is the worst as it is impossible to have a full night sleep as Ian will wake up at least twice a night..... but guess am getting used to it already.....

Don't really feel like writing much today..... shall keep you updated in the near future.....

I am back again.... have more free time at hand.... :-P

Tomorrow, Ian will be 2 weeks old.... how has the 2 weeks been?..... pretty tame, but there were moments of frustration of course....... Let me just summarise everything.....

1) Ian was discharged from hospital on 01/05, Monday. Due to his jaundice, we stayed at the hospital for 4 days..... Life at hospital was boring, but lots of food... :-P.... I was fed 6 times a day.... and of course, Ian was taken care of by the nurses at nite..... no night feeds for me.... :-P.... On the first nite home, Ian cried at around 10 plus and refuses to stop crying..... seems like he is SUPER hungry..... felt like a FAILURE as then my milk supply refuses to kick in and I only got about 20 ml per time..... Hubby said to supplement with Formula Milk..... and rush off to GIANT to buy the formula milk..... Upon drinking the formula milk, Ian fell asleep..... I really felt so DOWN at that moment........ but things got better as my milk supply improves.....

2) Ian was again admitted to the hospital for 2 days from 04 - 06 May 06 for his jaundice..... It was a busy 2 days as hubby and I run around from home to hospital to visit him..... but it was also kinda fun as I managed to get out of the HOUSE..... :-D..... But the frustrating thing is that everytime I visit Ian, the nurse had fed him formula milk.... so no chance of breastfeeding him for that 2 days.....

3) These 2 days, Ian been a bit naughtier..... he refuses to sleep in the early afternoon..... he will keep awake from 12 plus till around 4 pm..... and he wanna company..... he also wanna suckle on me before going to sleep..... am beginning to treat me like his pacifier.... :-(

Okay, enough updating for the day..... will continue to update on Ian's development......

My Birth Story

I am BACK!.... Ian was born on 28 April 2006 at 1105 am.... let me update you on the "ordeal"....

28/04, 12 midnite : check-in into TMC for induction.
28/04, 01 am : Nurse put in the pill (did not feel much pain throughout the nite)... but was unable to sleep at all as I was feeling scared and wondered if everything will go fine in the morning.
28/04, 06 am : Nurse came to tell that they have to bring me to delivery ward for drips. Managed to take a bath first :-P
28/04, 07 am : Put on drips (ouch, as the nurse had to do it twice as my first vein was not straight)... till now, the vein is still aching.....
28/04, 0830 am : Doctor came in to burst waterbag.... can feel the water & blood gushing out..... feel so messy..... but pain still bearable.... using the breathing techniques whenever I feel the contractions.
28/04, 1020 am : Pain becomes unbearable.... tears started to come into my eyes and I really felt like giving up.... do not want to give birth at all...... wanna pain relief now..... in desperate need for pain relief......and I really, really feel like pushing... Nurse came to check my dilation and found that I am 8 cm dilated.... Nurse ask whether I wanna the "p"-injection..... ask her how long it will take to be effective..... She said about 20 - 30 mins..... and I think no point as afterall, by then the baby will be born.... so just ask for gas...... Keep on breathing the gas and screaming into the gas mask whenever the contraction came...... Gas doesn't seem to be working as I am not getting high at all.....
28/04, 1050 am : Doctor came..... he put on the "green" overalls..... and when I was just about to get high on the gas, the nurse took it away.....*sob* *sob*...... No more gas and doctor asked me to push...... Tried to push, but no breath..... nose blocked due to my earlier crying.......
28/04, 1105 am : Doctor saw that it is useless to ask me to push the baby out..... so the "vacuum" was prepared and he inject me with a BIG needle to numb the area..... and then he cut me...... When the next contraction came, he asked me to push again and then he vacuum out the baby.....My little angel, Ian is safely delivered... It was a wonderful experience seeing him.... started to close my eyes...... was so relief and tired...... but before that, managed to see my hubby with tears in his eyes...... and of course, my hubby decided to abandon me with no backwards glance and follow his baby out of the room...... :-P ....... I closed my eyes and doctor started to stitch me up..... can feel the needle and thread going in and out.....

Was the labour pain worth it? I guess so..... seeing little Ian is certainly a wonderful experience and it does make the ordeal less frightening for me.....

Anyway, the story does not end here.... will keep you updated of the first few weeks of Ian's life.....

Hi

I been more than a month.... it is 27 April already.... time flies....

I will be induced for birth tonight.... and hopefully Ian will be born by 28 April.... What is my feelings?..... I really dunno..... I do feel scared..... nervous.... yet a bit excited of seeing Ian....

Shall update you on my feelings a bit later on....

Tata

It has been so LONGGGGGG since I write here....

Ian has been growing well.... and moving around a lot especially at night.....

Just went for another scan today, and he finally showed us his face..... he is so cute..... CHUBBY, but not smiling..... think he may either be sleeping or just too shocked to smile at us..... but it was nice seeing him after 4 weeks.....

He is also a bit on the high side of the weight.... he is already 1.8 kg when an average baby at 31 weeks is supposed to be only 1.6 kg..... yeah, 0.2 kg sound like a small difference, but to a baby, I think that is a remarkable difference.....

Just 9 more weeks to go, before Ian is born..... and what a difference it will make in my life..... From just a couple to a family..... and all the changes that have to be made..... but guess after 5 yrs of marriage, it is time for a change.... :-)

Shall update further in the next couple of weeks....

Tata.

It been 3 weeks since my last entry...

Found out that I am being promoted to MX 11 this year... felt happy, yet unhappy too... isn't it just human nature to be never happy with what is given to you... actually, I am happy with the promotion as that means a good pay increase.... yet, I am also unhappy as it might deter me from finding other jobs.... Guess the truth is that I am bored with my job and needs a change of environment... and of course the fact that people around me are also getting new jobs...

But even if I am looking for a new job, I can only do so from Jan 07 onwards as I wanna keep all my Year 2006 bonus and hopefully, get my performance bonus for Year 2006 too.... I am kinda confused now... just have to tolerate my job for another 8 more months and then can move on some where else.... just hope job market is still good then...

Enough complaining about my job.... on the baby front, I am growing so much BIGGER now... and Ian is also quite big already.... I just can't wait to give birth & go on maternity leave & only return to work in Sep 06.... wonder if my pals will still be here...